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2007-10-16T00:56:00.000+08:00

Am i wrong again? Am i going into that state again? A state of confusion and hurt? I regained my pride, i healed myself...after 2 long years. Am i taking the wrong step again? All i can say is...time will prove to me...that i had let go and move on.

It's near..really near...what's next?

=(

2007-06-15T19:34:00.001+08:00

To: Dearest Mickey mouse

7 hours had passed, it seems like eternity. I msged you 3 times. I took the pig home and hug it to sleep. I gave this cutie to you on our 3rd anniversary and the smell of it reminds me of you. You were finally enlisted to ns and wont be able to see you for 2 weeks. Glad to spent the days with you before your enlistment. We went to the temple at Bugis, travelled all the way to Katong for our specs, buy the stuffs required, staying overnight at my home and talking till 2am. They were all worth it. Didnt say goodbye to each other cuz it will be a torture. Waiting for your call makes me feel so fustrated. Knowing that i can only see you 2 weeks later dampen my mood. What's wrong with me? I hope you're fine, and i know youu'll be cuz your cousin is with you, and 1 month later, friends from sec scl will be joining you. 14 days before i can see you. What a drag! I miss you, mickey mouse.

From: Me

2006-12-18T14:32:00.000+08:00

Mickey mouse went to thailand..i guess he should be in thailand now. Life's a joke. 2 years ago, he went overseas and it doesnt really affect me. I sent him a message before he left..that's all. 2 years later, 5 hours before he left, i was talking to him on the phone. Crying. Talked to him from 11pm to 2pm...and i silently hope that he will not leave...but on 4.40am, he called me saying he's at the airport now. On 5.33am, he's on the plane, leaving. Boo! No one will talk to me at night and send me sweet messages...and this will continue for 5 days!!!! Siao lar. Shall use this week to finish some of my work. It's really a lot...and i just realise it. I even lost some of it..great! KaiQing!! Save me!! Photocopy the worksheets!!! Haha. I will start to count down...

2006-12-12T11:23:00.000+08:00

I am finally 18!!! Yesterday spent a peaceful day...no birthday cake for me cuz my bro treated me to ice-cream and i was so full...YUMMY! I am glad that he spent the day with me...despite the fact that he had a headache and 2 exams before then. Thank you...pang pang. Thanks to all the people who sent me birthday greetings too..i appreciate it.
We celebrated our 3rd mth anniversary on 7th. I was quite scared that something will happen again...we didnt celebrate the 1st 2 mths...cuz..in one word, suai. Anyway, it was really a memoriable day...i never knew i am such a romantic. HAHA. I made a card..though not very nice lar...gave him a really cute piggy bolster and brought him to Swensen to eat ice cream cake. It was extremely embarrassing when the waiter asked me was it my friend's birthday. But NOPE..it was just 3 mth anniversary..not 1st mth or 1st year..but 3 mth..and the worst thing was i requested 3 candles..BOOOOOOOO! Totally no face. But i guess it will be another year before i treat him to Swensen again..it's not cheap okie! But i know he spent quite a sum of money on me...so on this kind of special occasion...no choice lar...anyway, after that we walked around in town and happen to get FREE drink at STARBUCK. Look carefully..is FREE drinks...any drinks! Wahaha..cuz they doing some charity work..but we..okay lar..HE donated 2 bucks..cuz HE spent 5 bucks on some totally disgusting muffin or cookies? Whatever..it was DISGUSTING. We stone there for almost an hour...really stone! Then went to Chijmes...it's expensive, but the portion is really really BIG. I had to stuff the food inside my mouth...but i still cant finish it. Oh yea..i drank long island TEA..that's crap lar...it's plain alcohol. The best thing was after taking 6 SIPS, my face turned red...slept on the train, reached khatib, felt like vommiting and alight the train. PUI. The feeling was so...eeeeeee! Guess i was slightly drunk..that's what he told me...haha...so malu...drank 1/4 only lor...i shall train myself to become a good drinker...=P
It's 13 dec...and i haven started studying...not to mention all those chunks of works to do. Time to buck up...someone pls motivate me!

2006-11-28T20:45:00.000+08:00

WootS! I had so much fun these few days...think all the laughter i buried inside my heart all came bursting out. It's really fun going out with him..we have one thing in common..bad mouth people behind their back...and it's practically behind their back. WaHAHA. The worst thing is we cant stop laughing once we started. Running woman and toilet man. So idiotic!
Went hockey training at delta yesterday. It was raining so heavily and i still had to play for at least for another 30 mins. In the end, i had to go town like a mad woman who just had a bath and cant be bothered to dry herself. =p
I miss Kai Qing, Sam and Jo. I miss laughing and gossiping together. Most of all, i am gonna miss my J2 friends. Sometimes i wish that i am still with them..graduating together...but not going to the prom lar..cuz seriously, i am not interested. Waste money by dolling yrself up for a few hundred bucks just for that one night? Hmm...my hard earn money lor...i wont throw it into the drain. And i know he wont like me going..so it gives me one more valid reason why i shouldnt go. Haha.
The day is approaching soon..i am still finding surprises..though i already have some in my mind..but on second thought, it doesnt seems that surprising to me..just hope that that day will be a happy day and i wont ruin it..yea...i should control my temper...
Guess this is the longest entry i wrote in this year..so many unexpected things happen...glad to say that this year is not a bad year afterall...i should really start studying soon...if not i will have more regrets....lucky lady...please stay near me!
Oh yea...kaiqing...i where got zhong se qin you lor...dun accuse me! Always bad mouth me..previous time say i disgusting..u good! =) Miss u all!!!

2006-11-18T23:52:00.000+08:00

liar liar liar. So it's all lies from the start of the beginning. why bother to say sorry. bet u wun wanna tell me if i didnt force u to say out. it's so shit. HA!
Really...a person shouldnt be a fool twice...if not, it's not call fool...it's call stupid...really stupid.
Friends are afterall better..so glad that i didnt listen to u and try to break off contacts with my guy friends...so well...i am not that stupid.

Oh well...Sam went for holiday today...Eeee! I am so jealous of her...how i wish i can go overseas..and i dont mean M'sia. * Dream on *
I think i should spend my time revising and earn more money! That's what i call being practical.

2006-10-17T23:11:00.000+08:00

Life is so DEPRESSING. I think the rate of students commiting suicide will be even higher than last year...all thanks to... well i shall not mention it...i hope everyone will remain happy...

2006-09-05T23:44:00.000+08:00

C said C miss the past...did C really? I truly regret viewing C's blog..felt so sad..the part which i tried so hard to forget all return...but it's really good to know that C's doing well...really well...i guess it's even harder to forget now... wx asked me a qns on that day...i didnt answer cuz she answered for me...no...i have not let go of the past...i didnt forget anything...not at all...
everyone's telling me to forget..the fact is i cant...and cant they see that i am trying? now i know the phrase "time will heal eveything" is a lie...apparently, it doesnt work for me...so what else can i do now...nothing..again! NOTHING.

2006-08-26T22:29:00.000+08:00

So Long Didnt Blog. But i just want to say ** PUI! PUi! Pui!!!!Why i SOOOO SUAI! I told D the truth...I really cannot Be friends with M. IMMPOSIBLE! This feeling really sucks!!! But i DUN hate M either. HAHA. SIAO. DIAO. Horrible DAY. Kinda dampen my mood...afterall it's been 2 years. I just wonder how M is. Seems like M is good. Feeling weird. BOO!

2006-05-30T21:20:00.000+08:00

Today's a better day! Ha...=) EveRytHinG Is a MisUNderStaNIng

2006-05-29T13:57:00.000+08:00

Today is so SICKENING! Shit! I think i have monday BLUES! During Chem lecture, for some goodness reason, i dont feel like talking..and what happen? People mistaken me as dao or whatever. Come on lar..i am not deaf...i roughly know what u all are talking about, i didnt comment cuz i know it's my fault too. But I really admire myself..cuz i didnt talk at all for 2 hours...PERFECT. But i just really dont feel like talking...and i seriously dont think there's anything wrong with that. The good thing is i am able to concentrate and know what the lecturer was talking about. So anyway, back home, some annoying things happen and it's really..dammit. Bloody hell. I am SO ANGRY! @#@!%#@$#! Okay...i think i have cursed enough. It's a SICK day! I shall change for the better tomorrow, if life allows me....sounds stupid. OKAY

2006-05-10T19:33:00.000+08:00

Okay..i saw SOMEONE's friendster profile and i couldnt stop laughing!! Alright, i know i may sound crazy, but just look at the photos!!! It's really HAHAHAHA! Seriously, i am kinda surprised..i mean u aint that er...bad-looking afterall...anyway, whatever! It's none of my business..i just happened to browse through. Once piece of advice....just take those photos out...it will do u good! =)
I am TOTALLY pissed off today. So what if you are busy...u think i am so free?? Take me for granted! Now, i really wanna say...Ta Ma De! I wont talk to you for 5 days..i promised! Be thankful that i didnt write ****. Haha! Dont get on my nerve..i warn you beforehand...if not you shall get what you deserve from me...and it's not gonna be anything good..trust me that...

2006-05-06T23:18:00.000+08:00

What can i say? It's YOUR choice and i have no right to change yr decision. So all i can say is, WHATEVER! Bull! I am upset...All thanks to you.

I think i will join hockey instead of choir as my cca. Not that i dont like to sing anymore, just that i cannot really interact with the new batch. So well, since i have so many hockey sticks at home, i shall make full use of them. Another reason is bcuz the practice is only once a week, compared to choir, which is twice a week. The duration for hockey practice is also much shorter. So anyone with an average IQ will choose hockey..haha. Next is bcuz the teacher in charge for hockey is my CT...i love him so much that i am willing to join. LOL. Not that LOVE, just that i think he's a great guy...he's so auntie cuz every wed, when i have free period, we will chat outside the staff room for 1 hour..imagine how many things we have to gossip about. HA! So well, i will most probably join hockey after i step down...it's more healthy too..i can train my stamina and keep fit. Such a good cca! =) I just hope the choir teacher will let me off without any grumbling...cuz i am pretty sure she will give me attitude, just bless me that she wont be my GP teacher..then everything should be alright. Haha.

She recieved his email and she's glad, cuz this is the longest email she had ever recieve from him.She hopes that they will still be able to go to Sentosa..soon...cuz she missed that particular day..she had so much fun then. His bday is coming soon, but she cant do anything much. Last year is definitely a much better celebration, but she hope that he will still be happy on that day. She will sms him, but will he be glad to recieve her msg? She certainly hope so. Till then....

O.o...i think i should be a writer for romance book..muahaha. Nah...unless i improve on my vocab and language...but i am good at describing..=P

So people, wait for Part 2...it will be out soon...this is just the beginning. "....the suspense hang in the air...."

2006-04-29T17:24:00.001+08:00

Somebody please shoot down the sun!!! I think i am gonna melt soon..haha. The whole afternoon i was sweating like a pig..argh! Sleeping with full blast fan on can also make me sweat! Goodness, i wonder what's the temperature today??!!
Anyway, these few weeks..were ...okay. =) A relative from China came and we went to Sentosa!! Of course to places i dreamt to go. So off we went to dolphin lagoon and unerwater world. Seriously, dolphin lagoon was a complete waste of money. Stood under the blazing sun and watched the dolphin did some somersault or something. True, it was a great show, but it only lasted for er...15 mins?? But well, i was not the one forking out the money, so well, it's okay. Those few days he came, i practically slept for >4 hours...so i was dozing off during lectures..lol.
Next was the oac. It's........NOT FUN! 1stly, the camp fire was atrocious, next, the activities were basically the same. But the good thing was, the instructor of abseiling was good-looking...muahaha. I think that was the only activity i enjoyed most. ( Mind you, it's not bcuz of the instructor but bcuz i found that abseiling was kinda thrilling )
So, I DONT LIKE YOU! People, see this clearly!!! You totally makes me sick! How i wish you can get out of my sight, better yet, my life! EEK! Dont act infront of me....PLEASE! And stop your nonsense..you're increasing noise pollution. =P
Okay..enough grumbling...it's much cooler now...thanks to 1 mag-a-cone ice cream and 1 big cup of rose syrup with 5 cubes of ice! =)
Before i end, my friend, dont bother too much about the people around you. Some people are just born to make you suffer. Ignore them! As for your studies, i believe you can do well, so dont get too stress up!

2006-04-07T22:46:00.000+08:00

Opps...so long didnt update..but i was lazy...typically me. Anyway, went to send my youngest bro to NS....as usual, i cried..it was SO embarrassing cuz no1 in my family cried..but of cuz i will cuz he's so close to me...we practically talk about everything...and i swear those army guys walking around were looking at me as if i am nuts..LOL. But in some way, it's true cuz he will be back next week due to "good friday" and i was crying as if someone passed away..okay..i am exaggerating, but i totally make a fool of myself! Oh man, i simply love the public holiday cuz if not, i wont be able to see him for 2 weeks! That's absolutely crazy! Anyway, the tour around Tekong was okay..i guess...nothing fascinating though..no good-looking guys...but all bald head and sweaty..so i dont expect much either =) the trip there was...er...so bloody long and the mini boat was like no air-con so i was giving a black face..are the people saving that little money?? muahaha...but i will miss him so much...he's really a good guy..when he is in a good mood...if not, i am smart enough to stay away from him...lol. And he's so kind to me that he bought me a creative zen nano plus..1gb..so can dl many songs..Whoots! I hope the guys inside dont bully him cuz he's really a goody guy and will agree to everything..okay..so that's all for my bro. Specially dedicated to him...Haha.
For school life, it's okay i guess...haha..limited vocab...but no words to describe too...i dont know what happen, but not really close to Jiaqi they all now..except during choir, when we will really laugh and joke. I love thiri cuz she really brighten up my days. But we are definitely not like what our instructor describe us as...bimbos..LOL. Cuz he actually wants we sop to sing like a bimbo...hello, we are 100% NOT Bimbos...except thiri..LOL...nah...we are ladies with heart as big as watermelon..=P In class, didnt really talk to those 2nd intake..cuz some of them are er...weird..haha. But still rather close to the clique, esp. kaiqing..she's like the little sis i always wish to have..i find her so..not childish..but a mindset of a GAL..muahaha...that makes me seems more mature..though i am only 5 months older than her..hehe...so Listen up people, I AM NO LONGER A KID!!! Yes!!! But i do have an innocent heart..lol..bull.
I think my CT is totally cool. He may looks like so heck-care, but i find that he's a rather caring teacher..to me at least. And i am looking forward to the camp on 19th april...though i am still not sure whether i will be able to go for it or not..cuz there's choir performance on the 20th..that's such a coincidence!! And my choir teacher was so pissed off with me when i said it's impossible for me to perform...as if it was my fault. Blame the school, the principal, whoever u are unhappy about! I am not the one who decided on the date of the camp..so it's useless pin-pointing me...i practiced hard for this performance too...it's just purely unlucky that the performance and the camp happens to fall on the same day..there's no1 to blame except the school! LOL.
Okay, for the cross-country, i would say i pretty much maintained the same...however, no1 except me think that the route was rather short as compared to last year. Anyway this year, there's still a "token of appreciation" for completing under 25 mins...a key chain..kinda cheap looking, but it's better than nothing.
Anyway, i just remembered that my elder bro asked me this question very seriously yesterday night. He asked:" Do u have anything to confess?" I was totally speechless and was thinking.."omg..did i do something wrong again?" But i really couldnt think of any until he asked me where did i go on tues..and i totally forget what happened until i remembered that i went to take my pay with Samson. I was so relieved!!! I thought something bad happen..anyway, big deal? Cant i go out with a male friend? What's wrong with this society huh? When u go out with a guy, they will naturally assume that they are a couple. Is there any law which states that 2 different sex cant go out together? Bull...we werent even holding hands and we absolutely looked like good friends catching up with each other. But well, my pay is only 45 bucks..how am i gonna survive in this "money is above all" society..LOL.
Ah...i see i can really crap...haha...i am so exhausted nowadays...next friday there's MQ's bday chalet and they are going clubbing at night. Well, i am definitely not going...actually it's not a prob of money or mid-night fare...it's just that i find it so dangerous...7 vulnerable gals going to a place which i doubt we had experience in...so what's gonna happen if anything goes wrong? Another thing is, i dont wish to get molested..haha...go there need to pay ard 10 bucks of entrance fees and still get molested? Am i stupid or what? Unless there's someone older than me going with us...if not, it's totally out of mind to go there. You know, curiosity kills the cat? On sat, i saw this lady at east coast park, totally drunk, being taken away by 2 guys..no..they practically dragged her and she seems reluctant to go with them...after a few metres, one guy just carried her off and god knows what happen later in the night. But the lady was really bitchy herself...she might as well cover her front cuz her back was like...all holes...LOL..my bro said she deserved it cuz if she didnt not flirt with those guys or go there at all, nothing wil happen..she will be safe. Anyway, the other 5 ( No idea whether Dorine going or not ) Please be careful...it's not as simple as you think...my opinion. =) Okay..that's all..i am...let's see what i am gonna do now.........................................................................................................................................................i think i willl...NO IDEA...lol..Goody Nite people!

2006-03-18T22:20:00.000+08:00

oh my goodness!!!!! I got sunburnt from god knows where! Although i intend to suntan, but there's no place where i can lie down, so i dropped the idea. Then how the hell do i got sunburn when i didnt even stand under the sun for more than 30mins!!! Argh! The best thing was, only my shoulders were burnt...weird isnt it? Now i feel that i am burning...and "hot". LOL. Anyway, today's 4e4 class gathering at Sentosa was quite a disappointment. Only 8 turned up. But well, at least there's 8. Haha. It was quite boring cuz there's basically no plan ( as in what're we gonna do there ) So for around 1hr, we were taking photos...lame...after that we finally found a place to settle down. Then we just fool around. =) But i wasnt really happy today. First of all, CCW told me a news which apparently cause my mood to drop from 100 to 50%. I was really sad when i heard it...though it doesnt really matters now...yea...but the truth hurts la...at first i thought CCW was bluffing me...but nope...it's true...but well, it's over...just glad to dig up the past! I Am SoOo Sarcastic! On the way home, i realised i really miss 4e4. I missed the people who shared 2 years of their lives with me. Hope everyone will be safe and sound!
Anyway, holiday is ending soon. Now is the time to start bucking up. No more honeymoon...LOL.

2006-03-13T21:54:00.000+08:00

4 days at home, and i feel more safer...well, that's why it's called home. I am being protected. Sound and unharm..Lol. I feel so CALM and LAZY now...hmm..wonder when i will really become a pig with the short tail coming out from my ass. Muahaha. Okay..so *** maybe a forbidden word to some people, but not me, anyway, pardon my language and i know ppl like sr will be laughing. =P Anyway, i think i am rude. Absolutely RUDE. But really man, i should cut down on my sms and stop smsing those useless messages. It's really a waste of my time and money. So i choose not to reply. Haha. Well, you should forgive me on that.
Anyway, i went out to town with Chermaine and Seow Hui to buy Mar and MQ present. It's really nice i would say. But i know Mar read my blog, so i shall not write out what the present is. Haha..shall keep you in suspense. This week will be rather boring, but going for choir practice tomorrow. Yea! But dread seeing the u-know-who. Anyway, have fun people! Btw, Happy vacation, Marilyn! Dont ogle at the guys..LOL.

2006-03-09T21:27:00.000+08:00

I dunno what's wrong with me today cuz i'm feeling moody. Perhaps it's the flu which has been pestering me since this afternoon and now I am extremely unhappy for reasons i cant figure it out myself. I wanna talk to someone, but looks like i cant find any potential person to talk to. It seems rather weird to talk to my friends cuz we seldom meet and even if we do, it's rather difficult to share your burden if they simply have no idea what's going on. Maybe the problems were actually there all the while, but i chose to avoid it. So now, it erupted. I thought listening to songs will help, but obviously i was wrong. It's useless. Bathing seems like a good solution, and yea, it is, but only a little. So i am left with mugging. Behind the smile, it's tears. It isnt that simple afterall. I hope it'll be a better day tomorrow.

2006-03-07T12:18:00.000+08:00

Hoho!! My 1st time ponning school this year. Not exactly pon cuz they having orientation and i cant be like a fool playing with a bunch of kids. Anyway i heard that their games are pretty lame, so i might as well stay at home and do my own things. i think my passion for piano had arised again. This time i will not give up halfway..lol. I will make sure i know how to play some songs. But it's rather ex...the one i found in bugis cost 35 bucks for 45 mins!!! Anne recommended me to go for communtiy centre or yamaha. Anyway, i shall see. LOL. This week gonna finish my maths assignments..there's like 4...3 of which i took 2 weeks to finish..haha. It's a boring week!
I like this song..heard it when one of the contestant from campus superstar sang it..nice man! Tomorrow i also ponning, but going out with my bro to purchase mp3!! I hope he will buy and dont consider too long...but he going NS soon...boooo! How can Singapore take him away for 3 months!! Then nobody will talk to me...so sad. But i will get the chance to touch his bald head..muahaha! Brrr...bored!
Anyway, last sat went to support my bro's hall 6 cultural night. Quite nice...i mean the performance except the rock band, cuz i think the vocalist was like taking drugs and controlling his bladder...LOL. You should see the photo i took esp. for him. Muahaha. And then there's also this lady who sang...er..below standard...she's practically shouting to the mike. Anyway, for these 2 events, i was covering my ear. I cant stand the noise. Lol. I am really insulting them. Anyway, my bro was okay la..though he kept forgetting his lyrics..and he was so cool that he joked about it. Not at all embarrassed. But i will say he can really create the atmosphere and really popular among his friends. Good for him! After the performance, he came down and actually was embarrassed about his performance. He admitted!!! Haha. His gf not bad too..played the keyboard..she's also the one who influenced me to learn piano again. Overall, it's quite a good performance, although every now and then, there will be swearing..but well, they are guys, what do u expect. =P

2006-03-05T17:11:00.000+08:00

oh my gosh! He's becoming more and more dashing!! Woots!! Haha...i sounded like a despo pervert. Muahaha. Come to think of it, it's none of my business. Get a grip man!!!! But well, see see also happy la....Anyway, i am beginning to slack..this weekend didnt revise at all...goodness. And i just know that there maybe a 4e4 class outing. Of all place, SENTOSA!!!! Are they trying to be romantic or what. Obviously there's nothing i can do except play with the seawater like a 3 yr old kid or suntan. So basically, it's a waste of time. Also, that means i am forced to see them again. Am i lucky or what?? Maybe i wont cuz i will be working? Haha. Hope so...at most i go for 2 hours then "zhao", whatever they called it. In that case there wont be any gossiping such as i still cant face the reality la, shy to meet them la or whatever the crap. But it will be really awkward man..there's bound to be interaction and u dont expect me to chat with him/her like nothing has happened when it actually did. It will be really SAD...Lol. However, they may not come..or come after i went back..so it's still a happy ending. **Pray Hard** Muahaha. Anyway, i think most probably will work...yea..maybe...if they asked me to...=P

2006-03-01T13:00:00.000+08:00

The feeling of waiting for the result to be released is awful. Once again, i am anticipating whether i will do well for my AO MT or not. Throughtout the day, i was feeling kinda tense. But it's not as bad as recieveing O's. Anyway, in another 1 hour, i will know how badly/well i did. I hope i get at least a C5. But i am aiming for a B cuz C is afterall, not a very pleasant grade to be seen in the paper. So well, god bless me! **Anxious follows**

2006-02-25T10:31:00.000+08:00

I sensed it, and i was bloody hell pissed off. Well, past tense. LOL. Anyway, life was horrible. Stop instructing me to run like a pro. marathon runner!! I cant run 8 runs!!! That's 3.2km for everybody's information. It was totally insane, but i was more stupid to follow whatever they said. Perhaps next time i should cheat. But i know i wouldn't cuz i dont wanna sabo the whole group, which obviously somebody did and drag us into running. I was almost half dead by the time i finished..so all thanks to those culprit with no intergrity to admit. Muahaha! I wonder why my temper flared up so easily these few weeks. That's life! Ha!
Recently heard about a young lady who erm, recorded some "destructive" video with her boyfriend inside her handphone. I dont mean to insult her, but omg, that was something really dumb to do. She actually recorded it inside her hp of all advanced technology now? But i guess she really forget that she had that video inside her hp when she lost it. But well, i think whoever who posted it on the net was really a devil. Ever heard of the word retribution? Be careful of yourself now..lol. Maybe that person is some sex manic or her enemy? Back to the topic, although i think it's her privacy but she should really think of where to record it cuz it will be really bad if it falls onto the hands of some kids and they may think the other way. Haha. But i am not encouaraging or approve of pre-marital sex cuz well, safety first. You never know what disease you will contract yea? So people, think twice!!! As for the couple, it's really a pity, but people will get over it sooner or later, so no worry.
Anyway, I am still waiting for my bro's present....mp3!!! Yeesshhh!!! Finally! But i havent decide on which brand. Ipod nano or zen nano? Actually it will be simple if ipod has FM radio!!!! So argh!!! It's either this or that...but i prefer zen..cuz there's radio. My bro suggested to buy me a radio instead. LOL. That's lame man.
Anyway, i went for the first meeting of CLDDS. It's was really boring cuz they wanted me to write an essay about ijc... and in CHINESE!!! That's terrible!!! I mean you want me to write so many chinese words?? I think it's more than 1000. I seriously think they are nuts. English wouldnt be that bad, but chinese?? They can totally forget about it. So it's back to square one. maybe publication...hmmm..come to think of it, rather not...cuz the people there basically slack...so it will be kinda boring. Whatever it is, i still have 2 more weeks to think. So well, until then.

2006-02-18T18:20:00.000+08:00

Went to pasir ris park and played with the children from Graceheaven. But it's not really fun cuz they were running all around. And also i didnt really interact with them..but i really dont know to cuz i am the youngest in my family and there's really no younger siblings whom i can fool around with..so yea i was just standing there, looking out for their safety..haha. Anyway i dont think i am a person who can take care of kids...i prefer just looking at them, seeing their smile, hearing their laughter. But if u want me to take care of them, it will definitely be a disaster! I just feel that it's quite troublesome la...with them running all about, so it will be really tiring. And the worst thing was i dont even know how to approach them! Cuz i simply have no freaking idea what children nowadays want except sweets and er...more ice-cream?? Ha! and i will be really terrified if i say something wrong and they just start to cry. Now that will really be a horrible sight! So the best thing is stay clear..LOL...dont make trouble...but i found out that they really liked to play catching..kids..HAHA. But i still love to do COP stuff, just that it depends on what kind..i think i will carry on with my usual type, like going to old folks home ( though some may think it's damn boring, but i think it's really meaningful! ) and maybe singing...i am really damn pro in that..cuz i am always singing whenever there's a chance..hee. Anyway, i was really exhausted that after having my lunch, i took a 2 hours nap...so well, i think i fulfill the service section for my NYAA..yeh! Good luck to the kids too..though i dont think there will be any chance for us to meet again. But nevertheless, it was a good experience for me! May happiness with you always!

2006-02-14T21:41:00.000+08:00

Wheee! I am so Happy!!! Never in my whole life have I recieved so many chocolates!! I did manage to steal some too...lol..it's really not my fault la..cuz the chocos are simply too tempting! Anyway, wanna thanks for the people who gave me those delicious chocolates! Esp. to JiaQi, HuiQi and YiZheng! Thanks for your gift! But i didnt give anyone back in return..cuz i dont have the tradition of exchanging presents...not my style. Ha! But i will give next year...provided that i have enough money for all..haha...I hope next year can get this much too...LOL. Happy Valentine's Day too all my special ones and friendship day to my peeps! I hope it's been a pleasant day for everyone...esp the couples!!!

2006-02-09T00:08:00.000+08:00

I am pissed off!!!! I dont wish to arrow and swear at anyone, but i seriously do think both of u sux! Can This J1 and J2 have common sense, feelings and be a little humble??!! I cant stand both of u! This J1, if u think u are so good cuz yr instructor is damn good, u might as well stay in yr sec scl. Dont come begging yr ass to be back in Ijc after O level result is released. Just bcuz yr instructor is good doesnt give u the privilege to insult our instructor. And you can really do us a favour by keeping yr mouth shut. One of the reason why i dislike going to choir now is bcuz of u. Can u imagine how dread i was feeling everytime u said u are coming to choir. My mood will drop from 100 to 0...0 u know?!! Omg, i think u really should reflect on yrself cuz it's not only me, but the choir members, (except yr best friend, that J2) and even yr classmates! And plsssss dont cling onto my classmates cuz u couldnt find a clique in yr class. Buzz off for goodness sake! Yr sight just irritat me to the maximum!! As for the J2, Pls la!!! Just bcuz u entered some compeition and what...get into top 3 doesnt mean that u are THAT GOOD! I mean come on man, if both of u are so good, how about u suggest to the choir teacher in charge that both of u shall be our choir instructor instead?!!! If u are not up to standard, which both of u certainly AINT, Just be more humble and ZIP your mouth. I think our instructor is good enough, esp since our choir was only established last year. I reckon we have achieve pretty good results! No one was complaining, so why are both of u nagging and nagging?? Damn both of u! Another factor u have to consider is budget. Our instructor is currently trained by a Professional singers!!! So do u think u'll be better than him?? Luckily i wont be seeing both of u on fri. I seriously will think abt changing CCA, since i dont really like the choir eacher in charge too. She has just became BOSSY and MEAN after we (the current members) decided to stay permanently in choir. Dont make me have second thoughts now cuz i know choir desperately need members. So if u provoke for one more time, and i really mean that, that's it man! I will join another CCA, it's not like i have no other choice.
Enough of all those bullshitters. I wanna tell my good friend :"Dont give up hope okay? I told u right from the beginning it's not gonna be sweet. In fact, those who said relationship is sweet is bullshitting. It'll never be sweet unless he's the one u gonna married. So take it as a lesson. There's other guys out there!" Lzx cheer for u! Hahaz! I think i'm going crazy...one min angry and the other min sad..Argh!!!

2006-02-05T20:59:00.000+08:00

Hmm..today can be considered fun ba..though i am not really that enthuastic...perharps bcuz there's guys, so kinda reserved. Anyway, all of us changed quite a bit..Mar had a gucci bag!! For goodness sake! That's pretty cool and expensive..Hehe...Cher was like those singers in the past cuz her dress was kinda old fashioned...er...buttons kind!! Dorine and Wan Xian still remained the same..not much changed, Mei Qiang has her hair permed...i think that's what they called it, but it's kinda nice. Our Bday princess really looked like a princess with the crown alike. Her dressing is not bad la, though i dont like her skirt cuz it's kinda bulky..haha. Then we met SH's cousins..my first impression was like, oh my gosh! One looked kinda nerdy+beng, so u can imagine the contrast, the other was dark...or tan if u prefer. But they are not that bad afterall, i dont really rmb their name, except the darker guy, Junwei or something..LOL. He's more friendly compared to the other one and to be friendly too, i did chat with him..not much, just those basic qns..but did not talk to the other guy..cuz he's 4 yrs older? There's generation gap. Ha! Yea..then SH suggested that we sang duets and I dont really know what happen, but there's sorta misunderstanding between SH and MQ, but it's alright now. So we were forced to sing in pairs and SH sabo Cher and the darker guy, MQ and the er...contrast guy, me and the darfer guy.lol. It's really embarrassing cuz i dont really know the words and then it was like...WEIRD la. Whatever it is, i managed to sing the whole song..Bravo! LOL. So, off we went at ard 6 plus..didnt stay for dinner...i am so exhausted..so anyway, i dont mean to insult the guys la...they are nice people, and i am truly sorry to forget their names...so yea...SR, that's what happen today..see i am so good to depict the whole story. =)
Wan Xian told me she met him kinda often at the MRT Station...hmm...guess this is call fate cuz he lives in Woodlands, but till now, i didnt have the chance to meet him...lucky she said he's with a guy, if it's a gal, my heart will be shattered into pieces...Okay..i am exaggerating..but they joked that he may be a gay now..i was like..HAHAHA...that will be so interesting..Hehe!

2006-02-03T23:35:00.000+08:00

It's weekend again!! Though i just studied for 3 days, they were really terrible..for no good reason, i was simply so tired each day..and today i dozed off at least twice during econs lecture...*yawn*. But i just woke up from 4hrs of "afternoon nap" Haha. Anyway, i really think that PE is a killer now...i cant keep up with those tough activities and nearly vomitted during one session..the teachers were trying to kill me alive..lol...but i survived...so gonna studying tmr and go and "chiong" ( i think that's what some ppl named it ). It's Seow Hui's mini celebration...but not really looking forward cuz 1stly, i am sick, so i dont intend to go kbox but perharps the steamboat eating only. Next, there's guys...can u believe it..she actually wants me to sing in front of guys??? I was so horrified and was thinking..this gal was nuts..hehe...but still have to go la..give her some face..but now, maybe not...cuz i am really sick, so why bother to go and waste my money if i dont intend to sing..but i will still go for the steamboat...pass her present and yea...just to be present..if not she will definitely say something bad about me..=P
Yep..i thought someone is so pissed off by me...haha..but i beg to differ now...it's just a misunderstanding afterall...so, the conclusion is: communication is important! Alright...it's kinda crappy but true isnt it? And before i forget, i think another someone is damn kpo lor...something's just aint yr business, so cut your crap, mind your own business. It's not as if u asked out of concern, i simply think that u have nothing better to do and wanted to spice up your life with some unrevealed news..so..buzz off!
Anyway, heard that O level result is releasing next week. I hope everyone can do well man, esp. those who are rather close to me. That boon kiat who always said i have e "guai lan" face, those guai guai type, Yuzhen, MinJie, ShuQi, YiFang, Connie, SzeWai, WanYing..basically those in 23b. Hope you all will do well, but still stay in IJC la..other jcs very compeitive...stressful....so stay here better..haha...

2006-01-30T11:59:00.001+08:00

I Pity Myself For Getting Sick Now. The Usual Illness....Flu And Sore Throat..Dammit! I Cant Even Have A Good Sleep Without Waking Up 5 Times...I Dont Think I Can Even Greet My Elderly Later...GREAT!
Oh...I Am Gonna Complain About The Optical Shop At 883 Tomorrow...They Are Lucky They Were Not Opened Yesterday, If Not They Are Gonna Get Hell From Me! What Kind Of Contact Lens Is It If I Only Wore It Once And Couldnt Wore It Anymore Cuz It's Out Of Shape Already..That's Pretty Annoying!
In Conclusion. It Wasnt A Good Day For Me. Bull!
Anyway, Happy New Year To My Darlingsssssss And Dear..I Hope You All Looked Stunning And Gorgeous!

2006-01-28T22:21:00.000+08:00

2 hrs left before new year..and i lost my most precious neoprint....kept it for almost 2 yrs..and i lost it now...is that coincident or what??!! But frankly speaking, i am kinda sad over it and panicked...but i couldnt find it anywhere...guess i lost it when i was out..so that means there's no more treasured memory left of him...omg...that's something to call for a celebration isnt it? Haha...i recieved his sis sms too...i am glad..lol.

2006-01-28T01:11:00.000+08:00

Hoho! Just came back from SHOPPING!!! Went to orchard with Jia Qi and Hui Qi, then bugis with Hui Qi and glenda. As promised, i really wanna thank them for accompanying me. Anyway, bought a nice pair of earring and finally a a very..eh..."transulcent" shirt...but quite nice la...thxs to both of them who helped me choose..i really took a long time choosing...from 2-8pm...and i finally bought the shirt at This Fashion...cost me 15 bucks only..cheap cheap!
Also, today's CNY concert was kinda successful for choir..hehe..I bet with others that Kith will sing wrongly, and am i always right????!!! I really burst out laughing when he sang the wrong phrase, but to avoid awkward moment, i contained my laughter. So i teased him after the performance, and he's always saying that phrase "laugh la laugh la, laugh all u can, dont do something wrong, if not i will laugh back at you"...haha! He's damn funny...and he really shocked me when he shoooked me by my shoulders...i thought who the hell was doing that...then when i turned around, i nearly glared at him...but seeing his really comical face, i punched and sweared at him instead..lol...that's even worse. Choir is fun...with me around...Ha! So New Year is tomorrow...shall wish everyone Happy New Year...sounds so boring..
Oh yea..think there's a secret affair going on??? Hmmm....makes me wonder...and i feel kinda mixed up..gosh! It's back!!! BULLSHIT!!!
Yea...it's really bullshit cuz on thurs, Hui Wen and i went to the wrong tutorial group...and we can sit there for 20 mins before we figured out that there's something wrong cuz none of our classmates were there...so sensing something wrong, we wanna ask the teacher, but she kept on talking and talking till she finally noticed us whispering ( we were kinda panicked). Anyway, we felt really dumb as well as embarrassed when we were told that we were in LT 4 instead of LT 5. Lame man! By the time we reached our tutorial group, 30 mins had gone by....goondo!!!

2006-01-25T13:07:00.000+08:00

Just happened to read my chinese blog i created for the very lame subject..MT..they wanted us to type our reflections and thoughts in the blog rather than writting it out..anyway it's written like...1 year ago?? It's around there... i am gonna delete it in my chinese blog now that the teacher will be looking at our blogs..so here it is now. My bitter-sweet story..LOL. It's past anyway, so no harm reading through..not much of emotion in it...
Hmm...actually my language isnt that bad la..haha...compared to now, i think my current Chinese language is even worse...and my writting will be horrible! I guess i can only write those simple words which even Pri scl kids know, but for those more profound words..hehe...the chinese dictionary in my handphone comes in handy now. LOL. I just hope to get a B4 for my MT. The minmuim will be C6..though i will be retaking should i really get that humilating grade. =)

当老师您播放周华建的歌”朋友“时，我就想起和我一起度过中学生崖的几位志同道合的好姐妹和知己。我想在这写出他们的名字已表现出我对他们地感激。姐妹们包括：Seow Hui, 婉娴，Stephanie, Jia Huey, Chermaine, Siang Rong, Dorine, 美嫱，Jasmine, Marilyn.　而好朋友有：Kelvin, Zhi Xiang, Chun Wei, Faezza, Murni, Gui Xiang, Rong Wei 还有　“他”。这首歌令我再一次的想起“他“。“他”可说是在我生命中带给我最多快乐和痛苦的一位男生。和“他“在一起的那段时光，我才真正体会到酸甜苦辣的滋味。　我门在一起一年后，始终经不起考验而分手了。那时是要拿回 O水准成绩单。　我好伤心。哭了好几天。。。至今，每当我想起“他“时，眼泪还是会不知不觉地落下。分手的原因有很多，但大部分是因我而起的。我好后悔当初为何不好好地珍惜“他“。。。真的好后悔。现在的我们就好像陌生人，不在和对方联络了。我真的希望终有一天“他“会原谅我。。。。周杰伦的歌“晴天”带着我和“他“的回忆．说到我那几位姐妹和朋友，我和他们在一起时，我非常快乐。当然，我们也吵闹，痛骂对方的时候，但这已是过去了。现在我们各奔前程，也已有自己的朋友了。虽然已经很少联络，但我期盼年底班4E4聚会。到时，我会非常兴奋地和他们聊天，谈谈现在已过去。中学的确是最温馨，最美好的时光。我想我再也得不到这种感觉了吧。人生始终会有许多后悔的事，但只要我们再往后的日子不要再放错，我相信人生就会像彩虹般一样的美丽和灿烂！朋友们，我祝你们笑口常开，天天快乐！
Haha...i really feel like laughing and crying at the same time...i sounded so naive and dim-witted...but well, i am only like 16++ at that time...however, i am still the innocent kind soul. =P

2006-01-24T13:01:00.000+08:00

You told me the truth, i accepted it..Long ago..so what's the prob with you now? Trying once again to give me false hope?? What the hell man! Sometimes it just irks me to know that you are so phony..but i am more sick with myself for even engaging in a conversation with you. =S
Anyway, nowadays i am beginning to slack. I think it's mainly bcuz of the arrival of CNY. I am kinda thrill!! I mean, it's gonna be a whole new year again!!! 1 year flew past me..lol. Anyway, gonna go shop for my new year clothes today after school with huiwen..can u believe it?? In another 4 days time it's CNY and i haven finish buying my clothes...LOL. I still need to buy a shirt and skirt...that's all.
I am bored...that's why i am rotting here. However in another 15 mins, i am going for Econs tutorials...sad to say, the teacher really bored me to death. Sometimes i cant even hear a single word coming out from his mouth! It's like he was mumbling....nonsense...LOL.
Oh well, Cya for now...it's really cold here...Brrrr...Ha!

2006-01-16T13:03:00.000+08:00

Ha! I finally had a new template...i think it's really nice though...LOL. It comes with Tata young's song..heh...thanks to huiwen...i am so surprised that it's just so damn easy....i'm really a noob...anyway, i 'm really bored now. Came to school to attend 2 lectures only..and i have to spent most of my time in the comp lab stoning...before this was Chem, and 1 hr later, i will be off to Geo lecture. Luckily the two lecturers are interesting and like to tell jokes, if not i will really be bored to death! Hmm...this song is really nice..haha...the next time i blog, it shall be Jay's song....cuz his song "qing tian" is really fantastic! Woo! Bye!

2006-01-15T15:59:00.000+08:00

I am really really really really BORED. Anyway, went out with SH and Cher ytd around 6pm...then came back around 10pm..lame right? But it wasnt as bad as i thought. Saw my youngest bro working at Hagen Diaz. He really looked vulnerable standing there waiting to serve the customers...but my mother said he gotta toughen up cuz he's simply too..er...denfenseless...everything also okay...LOL. I recieved his sms. Kinda weird cuz...it seems odd to me..Ha! Maybe in the past i will be happy to recieve his sms, but now i just cant help but think that he's rather hypocrite . It's no wonder i will think of him in this way cuz of so many incident. It makes me think of what i said to them ytd. Guys really "Fan Jian"...LOL. That's to some extent. Haha! When you are pleasant to them, they treat you like trash, when you finally enlighten and decided to disregard them, they see you as their precious gem...loathsome right? But i do know some who are really kind souls..however, they are forbidden...LOL.
Oh, i had a very peculiar dream last night. Kinda creepy, terrifying, daunting, whatever frightening words you can think of to describe it. I hope that dream is fictitious...hm...yea....

2006-01-13T21:38:00.000+08:00

LoL. Okay, it's time to start blogging again. But before that, i really think i am a computer idiot. I found a really nice template with cool music, but i just have no idea where to type the links and stuff like that. So, i wasted 2 hrs and get NOTHING in the end. However, it's not entirely my fault cuz the instructions as in where to type my links are not clear...haha...i am pushing the blame again.
Anyway, the new class is quite okay...though i dont recoginse most of them. But who cares cuz the class simply arent untied. They are mostly in pairs and REALLY QUIET and OBEDIENT. I cant believe they actually listen to whatever the teachers said. Run, they will run like nobody's business and mind you, the distance was like less than 200m, so i dont see the point running for my life =P. Go for those lame library tour, they will go without complain. Go for those really boring tour, i will no doubt, PON! It's a waste of my time. It's not as if the library is fansinating or what, i mean, It's just a plain library with lotsa books, convenient toilets, comfortable chairs, spacious room, and the most impt. of all, Laptops for me to use. In fact, i will only go to the library for the usage of computers and sometimes, book a room to study. I guess all JCs have these facilities, so no big deal and open your eyes so wide till i am afraid the eyeballs will drop out =].
Lectures as usual is okay...but i particularly like Chem and Geo. That's cuz both lecturers are really interesting and well, their really awesome facts and BRAGGING really keeps me awake. Ha! But Mr John Ng is really a nice guy...damn funny...LOL.
Anyway, i am thinking of joining other CCA cuz...Choir seems really boring now. The teacher is so desperate to find new members and though we are trying our best, she dont seem please. However, all CCA appeals to me, so i have no idea which one to go to...Track and field is out of qns cuz i cant compete with those superfast runners and also sweat like hell after training..haha...i dont really like to sweat, but i would like to be more tan. Ha!
Dont really have much to update...but i am looking forward to celebrate chinese new year. That means additional er...>100bucks into my account..lol. Not that much, but i just need to say some greetings, put on a wide smile, and here comes 4 bucks...oh well, at least better than working.
Are u satisfied with my blog, Gen? Lol.. And thanks for the Ferrero rocher...i do love eating chocolate..haha.

2006-01-01T18:25:00.000+08:00

*->Its abt Ur Husband/Wife Material*->8 expectations
A. Ur expected person is a Guy or Gal?
B. Name who u wan to do these qns. to noe ur frens beta?

Answers:
[a] Guy...dude
[b] recommended [ Joanna, that's all...cuz the rest asked by sr ]

My expectations:
1. Must love me...no lying to me

2. Must know how to coax me whenever i am angry [ It's often, so this is impt! ]

3. Good tempered [ I am bad tempered, so that's an attraction ]

4. Must be taller, not too dark and has a great build [ That's my dream..hehe..not skinny is fine with me , but dark, i find them..er..."dirty". I am not racist or discriminating ppl ]

5. No praising on other gals [ Except me. =P ]

6. Must be rich , clever and humerours enough for me [ Makes me feel proud of him ]

7. Must be MAN..no girly-like Pleeassee! That includes no smoking or drinking

8. Must be filial to my parents and respect my bros

Okay, that's all. Haha..that seems quite a lot to me, but well, good guys are hard to find anyway.

Anyway, went for countdown yesterday night. It's really a fun day. Went there with Shieh Hung and Joanna. Went to Orchard, Bugis then Esplanade! I finally bought my new year clothes..a long flowery skirt and a black T...looks kinda nice to me anyway. The best thing is they are cheap! The skirt cost me 24 bucks and the shirt is 10 bucks only!!! But the brand is Subway la..not those expensive brand..cant afford la..Lol. Anyway, after having dinner at BK, we went to Esplanade. It's only 10.30pm when we reached there, it's like woa! So many people! Samson said he saw me but i really cant see him ytd. It's really crowded. Tried to contact each other like more than 10 times but there's no reception, so no choice, i simply had to stick with my friends. Anyway the fireworks is perfect! Reached home at 2am feeling sticky and sweaty..Eeeee! HAHA! I can really feel the atmosphere there and it's thrilling! Will be back next year in 2007. Happy New tear 2006 Everyone!

Btw, SR, i recieved your sms. But is it for me? Cuz the msg sounds weird..lol. Anyway, i will save yr no. Happy new year too!

2005-12-30T18:29:00.000+08:00

I am glad that it's over...after the tough 1 month. I made it! However, the truth will only be revealed after 6.jan.06....let me enjoy whatever days i have...then i will be contented. A blissful, distressing, lively and warm year 2005. I kinda miss it...now! Well, i shall end this year with a smile =D Hope that the coming year will be even better!

Here's my wishlist for year 2006:
1. Study hard and score well ( Obviously)
2. Be more mature ( Cuz someone told me i behave like a monkey..wth..lol)
3. Be more tidy ( Take a look at my room and you will never guess it's a gal's room)
4. Be more energetic ( It's been a sleepy 2005)
5. My bro will buy mp3 for me ( That's supposedly my bday present)
6.Maintain the 1st runner for the x-ctry mass run for Taurus! ( It's hard though..with the yr 1)
7. Have a more wonderful bday ( It's kinda boring in 2005)
8. Enjoy the days we had like June 2005 ( I hope u'll come back..so i will, once again, have fun)
9. Earn more money ( If i can find a better job)
10. Everyone in this world is happy, safe and wealthy ( Impossible)
11. Have causual flings ( Muhaha! Just kidding)

Shall end here...cuz 11 my birth date, so shall only have 11 wish...lol. Happy New Year in advance, cuz i most probably wont update till New Year..busying "Chionging" before new term begins and mugging with those tutorials.

2005-12-26T13:25:00.000+08:00

HOHOHO! Merry Christmas to all! However, it's not that merry for me, my bros and his gf. Guess what? Early in the morning on christmas day, our car was somehow broke down! I will call it lag, cuz after 1 hour, we managed to get it started again. It's really terrible cuz it's raining, though not heavily, but i still dislike being caught in the rain. Anyway, there's 1 passer-by who's kind enough to lend us a helping hand, unlike some, who simply ignored us even though he's sitting in his house, looking at his newspp. I mean, come on, you wont die helping out right? So i was kinda pissed off. That's what we got from Santa, for our christmas present. =P
Christmas was fun though. Went to orchard at 2am. HAHA! We just went there for the sake of playing CS at e-max. It rocked alrite! We played continousely for 4 hours and jas and jia huey came over and looked for me, though it's only like a couple of mins. Anyway, i am grateful for that. Reached home around 9am, cuz of that CAR and after eating my breakfast, i dozed off to sleep. HAHA Typical me. Anyway, when i woke up, it's almost 4pm, well, half the day was gone. Saw Shannon's msg. Thanks a lot cuz you still rmb to sms me every occasion. I bet he's having a blast now cuz of all those parties and celebration going on.
So well, I shall write down all the people i wanna send greetings for and bless them with luck. First and foremost, my family, and relatives. Next, here are all my important friends, all rather, friends that i still keep in contact, occasionally. In random order, Seow Hui, Marilyn, Chermaine, Dorine, Siang Rong, Mei Qiang, Wan Xian, Jia Huey, Jasmine, Stephanie, Jia Qi, Hui Qi, Yi Zheng, Glenda, Lixian, Joanna, Yan Lin, Shieh Hung, Jia Hui, Pek Hwa, Andrew, Samson, Jane, Ah Bao, Gui Xiang, CCW, Murni, Hilwa, Faezzea, all my 4e4 classmates, Ijc civics group, all my choir members, my teachers and colleagues. Merry Christmas to you, though i figured that you wont know, but i just wanna wish you. Enjoy this occasion and i hope that life for u will be better next year. It's gonna be 1 yr, yea, so hope you find your happiness. Ha! I didnt realise i am that noble. Lol. Anyway, God bless.

2005-12-19T14:13:00.001+08:00

Hmmm...my feeling are kinda confused now. I had a dream this morning....a really really really sweet dream...i hope this dream will come true...then it will be a happy ending. But i conclude this dream...after nearly ten months, it's back to square one. It seems kinda stupid, even to myself, cuz it's ten months after!!!! I guess it's reallly hard to forget someone...that someone who well, deliberately hurt me..if not i dont believe i cant forget him! I really thought i have forgotten him until this dream. So well, give me till the end of march, whereby it's really one year...one year! I can forget him!!! I can do it! However, every now and then, i will ask myself how's he doing...though the answer should be quite obvious...he's good...in relationship anyway. As for financially, perharps not cuz i believe he's still in need of money.

Anyway, i went to Kulai yesterday with dad and youngest bro to pay respect to our LIU ancestors. It's really humid over there and there's so many people. There's even one lady who accidentally(i hope she is) POKED her incense stick into my back. I jumped up in pain! And it hurts man. I was about to turn behind and glared at whoever who did that, but when i saw her really regretful expression, i was like, oh well, forget it. Anyway, we went back at 1pm and there's a long long jam at causeway. However, i was sleeping throughout the journey that it doesnt concern me..HAHA. I was really tired cuz the day before, i went to play cs with my bro at emax till 5am and 1 hour later, we are about to leave for Kulai..so i practically didnt sleep for 24 hours. And now, i am gonna start studying!

2005-11-30T13:48:00.000+08:00

I am sad....i mean really sad! Just browse through all my friends's blog. It seems that they are having a great life now. I dont mean that my life sucks, but i am not fully satisfied! I have my bubbly clique, lovely friends all around me, but i do miss my life in secondary! We are closer then and i am much more able to just have a chit-chat session with them, whereby we talked about almost everything. But in JC, there's some hold-back. Somethings i simply have to hesitate before saying out loud. That feeling just sux alright! I figured out that that's call LIFE! Everyone has to grow up eventually and you cant wish that you will be forever 16. I miss miss miss my friends! My 7 girlfriends, the 3 mad women, everyone and him. I hope he's resting well now. I want to talk to someone! But seriously i have no idea whom to talk to. Dammit! I feel like cursing!!!

2005-11-05T00:20:00.000+08:00

Haiz...this is really sad man..how can a young, full of nonsense and energetic guy passed away...and it's simply too sudden. When i was told of the news, i just couldnt believe it...i mean...he was perfectly fine the last time i saw him..and it's not even a few months...i went to his funeral and yea...the place was peaceful and perfectly suitable. Anyway, his look's remained the same...but it's really unbelieveable that he was lying there. I recalled when i heard that he's in hospital on sunday evening due to the bursting of his blood vessels in his brain, i was like..what the heck? Is that a joke or something...i really thought that they were playing a prank on me, but well, it turned out otherwise. I thought of visiting him at TTS hospital after my AO MT, well, i never had a chance to cuz he passed away at around 6.30am in the morning. It's really disheartening! I hope and wish that he is happy and peaceful there. Cuz i heard that his last words to his mummy was :'' Mummy, my head is gonna burst!" Imagine how terrible he felt...i guess in some way, it's a way of relief to him. Take good care, my dear Zhi Xiang...i never forget the promise we made to each other when i was really down that time and you said it to cheer me up. it's really sweet of you and i never regret knowing you. It's horrible that now i have no one to cheer me up and share my joys and troubles. It's fate that you left us at such a young age, but i know that yr god will bring you to a even better world. I will always pray for you. 31/10/2005

Surprisingly, i didnt cry at the funeral. I guess i am immune to these kind of departure situation. After my great grandma, i hadnt cried over a friend or relationship other than acadamic. But i think it's bcuz i dont wish to show my weakness once again in front of my ex classmates. It's a bitter and sweet year in 2004, and i have put up a good show without crying. I passed my courage test...

After more than half a year, i finally saw him...it's nice to see him again, though all the memories just kept flashing back. I really wanna smile at him or at least said a "Hi" or something. However, under this kind of circumstances, i figured that it's inapproriate. So, i missed the chance again. The first day of the funeral, when i saw him, he changed slightly, but i didnt really looked at him cuz i was unsure whether i should or not. Anyway, after we left, Wan Xian and i went to Mac and talked for quite a long time. It's really pleasant to have someone to talked to..particularly on that day. I missed him, but not as much as the first few months when we broke up. On wed, which is actually the last day i am gonna ever see Zhi Xiang again, i really prayed hard that he's well. Once again, i didnt talked to him, though several times i caught us glancing at each other, but other that that, ZIP! Nothing. I couldnt bother much either cuz i was due for an appointment at Alexdandra Hospital, thank god my eyes isnt anything serious but just somekind of infection. Oh well, i guess it's probably gonna be a long time before i see him again. Saw his blog and that he's sad..i can imagine that cuz he's like one of his best friend. But well, life still has to go on isnt it? Dont be too sad everyone...i believe he's happy now....

Shall update on some cheery news. I made a new spec this afternoon! It's red colour and seems rather cool to me. A new spec = a new me! Hahaz! =) so everybody cheer up! There's always something to do rather than brooding over sad matters!
To that particular guy, it's really shocking man...i always treat you as a friend, nothing more...so do treat me back as a friend too...

2005-10-30T01:39:00.000+08:00

Ah! I just came back from my colleague Pamela's 21st bday party. Had lotsa fun! The joke Kinki told was damn funny..was laughing non-stop. Went to to work at Tampines. Actually i have no idea i am supposed to work today until Jennifer called me..and mind you, i am still sleeping! It's like 1pm, but i was stilling having my sweet dream..haha. Anyway, i rushed there at 3.30pm then went to the party after work. Reached there around 11.15pm and went home by TAXI at 1am. Gosh, i thought the taxi fare will be hell for me cuz i am gonna go home by myself. Luckily my colleagues DONATE 10 bucks for me..lol. Anyway, the uncle was really kind to me...he charged me 24 bucks instead of 34 bucks! 10 bucks less...woohoo! I think it's either bcuz he told me that e max is 25 bucks and he gotta keep his promise or he find me pity...haha..when i told him i wanna alight at wdl cuz i dont have enough cash ( it's 34 bucks already) he told me it's okay, he will drive me to my home foc cuz it's dangerous for me. But my youngest bro was at cwp waiting for me..so sweet yea?However, his driving skill kinda scared me. He was speeding at 110km/h!! That's so fast! oh well, anyway wanna thank the uncle..so nice of him..of couse that includes my bro...so conclusion is, there's still some kind soul in this world..HAHA

2005-10-17T15:33:00.000+08:00

Jeezz! I am feeling so disgusted now. I repeat myself, I FELT SO DISGUSTED!!! No doubt 100% disgusted but also 80% of fear within me..It's losing my appetite...gosh! I had that feeling after i went out with HIM! Wrong move, i know now. I simply cant imagine a person who will have that INITIATIVE..hell..i can really vommit now. He's not my so-called good friend yet, just a causual friend i will say, but i just cant stand his action...it's making my life miserable! I can truly understand other people's feelings now..OMG! Horrible! Seriously i think i gave him the wrong idea..da*n! But the messages i sent seem alright to me..in fact, he should know that i am not, and will not be interested in the guys in our school..i mean.. the guys in our school are not entirely that bad, but it's just weird to have an opposite sex as a good friend..esp. so after the experience in sec. school...so is he thinking way too much?I just hope he gets my message that i am avoiding him man...lesser sms and definitely no more "outing" with him..i guess that's the most obvious of all. Crazy! Whatever the case now..for goodness sake..dont sms me those what i will say, "junk msg"..cuz i need sleep and dont wish to wake up in the middle of my nap just to read your ever boring msg...and it's irritating me!
* one wrong step, be prepared to suffer* Hahaz!

Anyway, 2 days had passed..i didnt wish him happy b-day. Sounds rather petty to me..but i guess that's what he wants..isnt it? Since he dont wanna have any more contact with me, i shall fulfill his dream. 17 now, should should be more matured yea? I seriously hope so! I dont hate him or blame anyone for the break-up..more than half a year has passed..so it's time to move on! I just wish him well, happy, excel in his acadamic and also financially okay..i think he desperately needs that...and hey, that's not an insult..that's the least of concern i can wish for him as a friend. Anyway everybody let's be happy and enjoy our lives...who knows what might happen the next second yea?
lzx loves u all!

2005-10-13T20:32:00.000+08:00

OMG! Today is simply so embarrassing. Alright, i admit that my dressing for today sucks..cuz my shoe dont match my skirt at all. Well, that's bcuz i cant find any shoe and i am in a rush, so i wore a pair of sandals instead. I know how weird the combination is, but there's really no choice. When i boarded the train, i noticed quite a number of people looking at my shoe. You can imagine how embarrassing i was and i tried to hide it, but to no avail. Anyway, when i met Samson, he didnt comment on my shoe. So i thought it wasnt really that bad afterall. BUT, it was actually bcuz he didnt notice. So when he looked down and saw my shoe, he looked at me and say something like you wear a skirt but match with a pair of sandals? I was like totally humiliated that to save myself from that awkward moment, i gave a rather cool comment like it's my style. Gosh! I was hoping there's a hole for me to hide inside. Well, of course i change the topic immediately..haha.
Anyway, when we reached City Hall, we realised it's still early to collect our pay, so we went to shop around and did boring stuff. It's really disheartening to recieve a 75 bucks pay..hahaz..but we went to ben's and jerry? after. Whatever the name, it's an ice-cream cum brownies shop. The staff there were really friendly but their stuff are expensive though. Samson bought those 3 scope ice-cream. Nice but i wasnt in the mood to eat them. After that we went to Mac...finally! Cuz i didnt take my breakfast or lunch, so i was practically starving. Yummy..hahaz!
There's no school tomorrow..hehe. Relaxing time! Good luck to all my JC friends taking Bio or F Maths! Esp to Darric, Bio may not be important to u, but study hard as well. Kith, since all the subjects seem difficult to you, i guess you have to rely on F maths! Good luck and god bless you all!

2005-10-12T20:55:00.000+08:00

2005-10-12T18:30:00.000+08:00

YES! Mid course is finally over!!!! But it sucks totally..esp. chemistry..oh well, it's over now, i shall relax! Went to orchard with Yi zheng, Jia Qi and Hui Qi..haha..so fun! We took neoprints! I love them lots!
A level MT and PW presentation is at the end of month...just hope i can pass...haha..cuz it's not that important afterall.
Hmm..i miss choir so much...guess i love all those practices despite the fact that they are long. I esp. miss my camel! HAHA!

2005-10-06T17:57:00.000+08:00

It's really really really a long long long time since i update this blog. Anyway, i just have the urge to blog now, so here i am. Having my promo exams now, really stress out! GP's tomorrow and the rest of the exams will be next week. Just six more days and that's it! I am going wind myself down by SLACKING! HAHAHAHA

2005-09-17T20:30:00.000+08:00

Well, it's sometime since i last updated my blog. There's up and down, happy and sad. Anyway, the a capella concert was fantastic! Though it's interesting, however it's kinda long. We were just in time for the concert and Samson seems a bit pissed off, but he said no, so well, guess that's so. But he's really quiet that night, so i dont really dare talked to him. He seems ok after that so be it. Anyway, yesterday was IJC ever first mid-autumn festival celebration. Though it's not really high, but it's fun, to me. Had the K-box singing competiton, though Jia Qi and i didnt managed to get into top 3 (heard from teachers that we were too soft and caanot be heard, not our fault cuz it's the audience who's too loud), neverthless, it was a good experience! Classmates and friends were very supportive, thanks a lot! I am kinda confused now cuz of 2 things. Dont know what's wrong with them. Simply dont understand them...somehow i think that they cause my life miserable. But, well, i guess that's what we call LIFE. Promo exams are near, hope that i can get promoted.

2005-09-05T16:00:00.000+08:00

Guess what? I cooked myself a plate of fried rice!! Oh man! I am so proud of myself. Hehe...though it's a bit salty, but it's still edible. Haa...it's been so long since i last cooked..unless you count cooking those maggie mee aka msg noodles..haha...hmm...
Oh well, i am so energetic now..cuz i slept till 1pm..muhaha..alright, pig i am, but that's cuz i am so tired. I slept at 2am yesterday..so it was reasonable that i slept till the afternoon.
Just receieved Shannnon's email..hoho..he's not earning much, but that's reasonable cuz he's just started work. Get used to it..hehe...oh yea..i love taking neoprints, but i am not obessed with it man...it wont kill me if i didnt take neoprints once for at least one week..Haaz!
There's two tests coming up..darn..holiday???!!! Hmm....

2005-09-04T17:47:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a cool night. Went to some digital fair with Samson and saw some really cheap mp3. Around 50 bucks! Gosh! i cant believe it myself. After that we went to the concert at Chijmes Hall and yea...the concert is okay..but i prefer the previous concert i went to. After we went to eat at at Bobby's! HOHO! I love that place, though it's kinda expensive for me. Anyway, the meal was superb! Samson had a drink, Heinskein, which he's so proud of cuz he finally brought the drink himself. I even helped him took a photo..haha..and he's acting cool..muhaha! It's a good meal, however i gotta rush back cuz it's my bro's bday. Anyway, we travelled back by train..that's obvious, and we really looked dumb taking photos on the train. After several attempts to get a good shot, i gave up cuz it's really horrible. I rushed back home, but it's too late..i missed the celebration..Today went to celebrate Wan Xian's Bday. Happy Belated Birthday my dearest friend. Hehe..had fun at k box.. civics "party world". Sang and sang..and then we shopped around at Causeway point. I bought the ..... haha...it's really expensive! 54.90 bucks! But i think it's worth it. After that we went to crystal jade, but i didnt order anything cuz mummy have cooked my lunch. I went home early too cuz i wanna catch a drama series. Anyway, hope that the rest had fun.
Lzx loves u all and we will go out again on Dorine's bday!

2005-09-01T14:14:00.000+08:00

Hmmm...ytd was teacher's day..but i didnt go back to my sec. scl...i know it sounds stupid, but i dont wish to see some people, so i choose not to go back. However, i did change my mind towards the end of my JC's concert...i actually want to see my teachers. It's just too bad that the concert ended at noon...i figured that even if i go back, all the teachers will have gone for their celebration. So i went out with my sec friends instead. Anyway, i just want to wish all the teachers who have taaught me Happy Teacher's Day! Esp. to Mr Cheng because he was the one who helped me in my maths when i was failing from sec 1 to sec 2. Thanks to him that when i was in sec 3, he taught me, thus i was able to do well in my maths. There's also Ms Rebecca Lee, Mdm Mariam, Mdm Tan and Mrs Caroline Lee. Lzx loves u all lots and will never forget all the guidance and support u all gave me throughout my years in Evergreen Sec!
Anyway, went to Jean Yip to trim my hair! My goodness! It's Jean Yip! The salon i thought i will never stepped in...well, not in this age. Anyway, thanks to my elder bro who's willing to bring me along and helped me pay for it...hehe...it's really a good experience..esp, the washing of hair. Though it's kinda painful when the hairdresser was massaging my head, nevertheless, it's was really relaxing with someone washing yr hair..hoho!
I saw his nickname in msn and thought that it was really annoying. Whoever he wanna says to, i think it's really a lie...or rather, fake. Whatever it is, i hope he wont repeat his mistake or do that stupid act again. Next time he wont be so lucky cuz that person is not me. Worse come to worse, he may have to get prepared to face the judge and the embarrassment.
The one week holiday is coming....finally i can get some rest. But this JC really is a killer..i am gonna have 2 major exmas towards the end of the holiday. Puff! There goes my dream of going out. What's a holiday when u still have to study like mad for the tests? This is horrible! I think the MOE has to check out the dictionary and look up for the meaning of HOLIDAY!
**Failure is not an option** Oh well, everyone in JC knows that!

Haha

2005-08-27T13:03:00.000+08:00

HAHA! So long didnt update...no time...ah...bullshit...just that i dont wish to update..anyway, puff! Ytd's there's a bug pestering me..hoho! The bug is called Flu. Hate it so much..i was feeling sick all day until now..but that's bcuz i have taken panadol..broken one of my rules...i seldom take medicine unless i am really sick..but i took it cuz there's a choir practice today and i have to be preesent..but opps! This morning when i woke up at 6.30am, gosh! It's was so terrible! My right eyes was so swollen! I dont even know what's wrong. I figured out that maybe it's bcuz i slept for too long..haha..ytd when i came back from scl at 3pm, i slept till 6pm. Have my dinner, watched some show and went back to sleep at 8pm cuz i was feeling even worse. I slept through the whole night till this morning...HOHO! Felt so refreshed cuz i am finally able to sleep for so long...anyway, kinda guilty that i was unable to go for the practice. I think everyone was there except me..so ashamed...bla bla...
BTW, i am going for 2 concert during the sept. holiday! So excited cuz it's been a long time since i went for a concert. The last concert i went to was in dec. 2003. HAHA! I was supposed to go for a concert this yr May, but didnt go cuz went out with Aunt and Shannon..haha..that's a waste of money. Anyway, i will definetely go for these concert cuz it's more expensive and the venue is damn cool! At Chijmes!!! I love that place! Hehe..shall update again! Smile!

2005-08-12T21:01:00.000+08:00

Hohohoho! The gals, Marilyn, Dorine, Wan Xian (Celeste), Chermaine, Mei Qiang and Seow Hui (Sharlyn)

2005-08-12T20:26:00.000+08:00

Heehee

2005-08-12T20:04:00.000+08:00

I am so happy!!!!! Really happy!
Went to K box with my six bestest friends..i miss them so much! We had lotsa fun and that day was so high! But towards the night, i am getting more panicked cuz i havent studied my maths test. Nevertheless, we sang and sang, together, in a pair as well as indiviually. Dorine and I were like screaming when we sang "one night in beijing"..and there's also some video we took while singing..that's for Siang Rong who wasnt here with us..the song we sang were really touching...it was such a memoriable night...esp. so as it was my first time there..i will definitely go back again!
I am really a clumsy person!!! I actually fell down again!!! Although this time wasnt as bad as last time, but the wound doesnt look that good either. I fell down while running...again!!! This time, i was just running for leisure...but Gosh! I guess i really cant be sporty...whenever i tried to be sporty and run, i will fall...anyway, this time is my left knee...so it's kinda balance..both right and left will have scars now !@$#%$^ Hohoho! But it hurts like hell man...shouldnt have run with eldest bro and his gf on 11pm...stupid act! The worst thing was everyone was laughing when i went to school the next day. Everyone ws looking at my knee, asking : " You fell down again?!?! Must be looking at guys right?" I was like jumping man...accuse me...blea! My PE teacher was even worse...he said i am a gal who is fated not to have PE...HAHAHA! But i still went ahead to have PE...cuz it's fun!
Oh...another thing..hohoho! I am Happppyyyyy!!! HAHAHAHAHA!
Lzx love everyone!

???

2005-08-08T22:52:00.000+08:00

A very weird day i would say...they assume i dont know, but i do know..well, i assume i know with my sixth sense..hehe..there's a phrase "nu ren de di liu gan shi cui zun de" It's just that i dont wish to say out..but i hope it's not the truth..although the truth should be a good news for me. Anyway, i got my pay!! hehe..so happy. Samson's dad drove us there, or rather, drove me there cuz they came to my scl...haha...can save some time. Glenda they all were like standing around sending me off cuz it's really frightening...i thought it's just Samson's dad coming, but no! There's his mother and bro too...scared me...i was like..god...isnt it a bit embarrassing to have so many people waiting for u...but his bro is really cute...esp. the vomitting part...it's continously..i tried to controlled myself, but simply cant help it cuz the sound he made was so comical. However i still act like a lady and smiled only..not those really mouth opened so wide and "HAHAHA"!Hmm...life is like a joke "man"! Hohoho! The feeling is somehow back again...gosh! But i know i screwed up...big time! i accidentally revealed the photo in my wallet...damn! I tried to cover it, but guess it's too late...somehow i caught the look on his face. A "strange" looked...oh well...forget it..let nature takes its course. I wont try to wish, wait and make chances anymore..tired of it...
When i came home, i was sick..and i mean really sick! Suddenly there's a flu, swollen eyes and cough...it happened all at once...argh!! I hate falling sick...esp. flu, though i got it very often...no matter how much vitamin c i took or herbs whatsoever, it's no use..haha! But there's one really good remedy for me..that's to have a good sleep...so that's what i am gonna do now...BYEEEEEE!

=)

2005-08-07T10:27:00.000+08:00

Went running yesterday night...hoho..felt so energetic! Running makes me feel so refresh...no troubles...just keep on running and running...but my timing has slowed down...haha...but that's bcuz i havent been running for the past few days..but it's alright..i can continue my run again...
I realised that i miss my sec scl classmates when i was in the camp...i miss the fun we had...life's simply great then..except the days before June..but during that days he was with me and i was happy. After June, for no reasons, i became close with my friends again, however, he and i became distant..so i guess my life was kinda balance. Hmm...speaking of him, i still remembered that my photo(s) are still with him..i think they are at his aunt's house and he said he will give me back..that was in march...four months had passed, but there's still no news of my photos...i wanted to get it back, but have no idea how to ask him for it. Anyway, i am thinking of asking zx to help me ask...hehe...sabotage him..
There's one sentence which Shannon sent to me in his email and it seems very meaningful to me, "Life was not meant to be easy, but you now have more experience. If your week was so bad, at least you know it can't get any worse so it can only get better." Yeah, lasy week was really a bad week for me, but i dont think it will be the worst week cuz i have the feeling that the worst week has yet to arrive...so die die die!
I just recieved Samson's sms...it's kinda weird cuz it's been a few months since we sms to each other, and we sms to each other for about one hour...haha..guess we have quite a lot to catch up. He asked me when i am going to take my pay, i said i dont know...haha...obviously cuz there's no half day tomorrow! Anyway, i asked him is it stress in poly and he replied no!! Arhg....so good! Not like me...stress like hell..hoho!

Happy

2005-08-05T23:05:00.000+08:00

Happy Happy Happy! The camp was a success! It was definitely the best camp i have ever attend! The activities were so fun, esp. the fox flying!!! I was the first and extremely scared cuz i have never played it before. It was kinda high for me, though it was only about 2 storey high. Anyway, i was trembling and kept asking the teacher stupid qns like "what happen if i fall?", "will i fall down?" HAHAHA! Basucally i am just delaying the time...anyway, when i finally lifted up my feet, MAN! It was so frightening! I was shouting, however, heard from my classmates that i was screaming in fact. I guess the whole area could hear me screaming...but it was really scary. My legs were so wobbly and had to lean against my friend. But it's a really a good experience for me! Fun and exciting! then it's all the usual games. I would like to comment on the food cuz it's really horrible...esp the vegetables. It's as though they soaked in the some medicine..eek! At night, the heat was totally unbearable! I was sweating like mad when i woke up at 5am....5AM!!! Gosh! I dont even wake up so early when i am going to school and it's really tiring. Anyway, it rained in e afternoon and there's very limited activities we are able to do. But i did a very challenging activity. I gotta stand about 1 storey high "trunk" and stable myself..hehe...it was fun! And then we get ourselves prepared for e campfire. That's e best part of all! I was relly shouting till my voice was so hoarse..but it's worth it cuz Taurus won...and came in e first! WHOA!!! I am so happy! That night was really memoriable...everyone was so high and energetic! However we gotta go home e next day..i will really miss the funs we had...it was really fun fun fun! But before the camp, there's a parent-teacher meeting session...it was a total disaster! I am glad my parents didnt scold me for doing so badly in my summer test, but it made me feel so guilty. I am really guilty about it...i really gotta work hard for my promo exams...study hard lzx!

HELL

2005-07-29T20:11:00.000+08:00

Stress Stress Stress!!!Never in my life have i been so stress!!!! Not even when i was having my O's!! Gosh! I was wondering am i stupid or what! No matter how hard i studied, and i really studied hard cuz i woke up early in the moring at 5pm, slept at 12am. yet, that's the kind of !@#$% results i got back. I was so fustrated and sad for myself!!!! It's totally horrible! Terrible! whatever! I hate this kind of life! Simply hates it!! Argh! Whatever!
Anyway, there's a two day camp next week! Kinda excited about it cuz it's really been a long time since i last went for a camp..think it was at yr 2003? yeah...but i wish the people i am going with are my ex-classmates...i will have more fun with them..not that it wouldn't be fun with my jc classmates, but we arent really that close and they are more mature...oh well, everyone should be now....
Hmm...this week is the most busy and stress week...it's simply test test and more test! It's really driving me crazy....esp, the A level subject..horrible horrible horrible!

=)

2005-07-24T18:31:00.000+08:00

oh well, the bbq is a success though there's very limited range of food available. Saw many ex-classmates...they didnt change much..haha...anyway, it's only about half a year since i last saw them..what do i expect to see? Extreme change over like what Ames said? And he's really....argh...i wonder i should take that as a compliment or insult..but he's really..oh..."sweet" together with his gf...haha...some interesting thing happened..cannot say anything for fear of being hacked..hahaz...but its' really fun..i really miss them lots...i miss jia huey, jasmine and stephanie the most!!!! But steph wasnt here yesterday..so sad! Life life life...i miss my old life!!!! He wasnt there but she was. Hmm..when i saw her, she's still the same. I actually hope to see him..just to see him..nothing else man...I hope to have another gathering, then i can really know how's everyone's doing..really hope so...
And there's this guy, dont say sorry cuz i wasnt angry..haha..just joking with u cuz u're such a soft-spoken guy...u know u arent in any fault? So why say sorry?? Dont say sorry so easily k...didnt really talk much to u...so hope that in the future there is...take good care everyone, lzx love u all so much!!

sorry

2005-07-19T22:50:00.000+08:00

i just did a sinful act...i killed a harmless crockroach....damn! it's really a sin....this is the second time i killed a crockroach...but it was "running" in front of me...it should be lucky i didnt scream..if not it will die even faster when daddy comes...but...no matter what, i still have to kill it using a pesticides..cuz i really feel uncomfortable knowing this "creature" lives under the same roof as me...therefore i sprayed on it so many times...hoping it will die faster and do not suffer much...god bless! it's really horrible seeing it suffering..it's like it is having a stroke...man..sorry!

Chemistry~

2005-07-19T20:08:00.000+08:00

I love chemistry!!! I love my teacher, Ms Veron Lee!!! Haha..she's a very sweet lady...=)
Econs...hoho...well, at least the lectures are more interesting than last term..it was so boring that i will fell asleep...hahaz! BBQ is getting nearer..actually i am still thinking whether i should go or not, though i promised jas i will go..but on second thought, it's kinda rush for me...after my work i have to rush down from orchard all the way back...is it worth all my trouble? haha...i will only know it myself on sat..u're such a lamer...lzx...haha!

oh oh

2005-07-17T00:10:00.000+08:00

Hmm...i am the chairman of choir..i ought to be happy, googling, dreaming and being excited about it yea? Sad to say, i am not...i really wonder why....guess i really wanna be a secretary..but oh wel...i shall do my best then...
Anyway i am gonna start my swimming lessons next week! yeppie! That's what i am really excited about! Haha! oh yea, my 2.4 km run really hopeless! i screwed it up! that's basically a fail for my standard! But guess i have no one to balme except myself...i didnt train myself for the run and there's no compeititor...haha..li xian was in no rush to finish the run...anyway, i am glad it's over!
It's been a few weeks...oh oh!........haha!
Going for the bbq on 23...hmm...gonna see my ex 4e4 classmates...had a mix feeling about it..i am gonna see him him and her...the other her may not be coming..lol...should i be happy about that? yea..kinda..lolz.

=)

2005-07-12T21:32:00.000+08:00

HOHOHO! Damn! I gonna get a bronze for my NAFA..i'm so sad..i aim to get a gold...to hell with the inclined pull-up! it's all bcuz of it...swear swear swear! ARggggggg! I am not putting in any efforts for my 2.4km run..why bother! I am not gonna get a gold anyway..=(
anyway, life's boring..well, what can u expect when u are schooling? But today i am kinda happy cuz i can do my chemistry practical..hmm..recalling the first day i had my chem pract. in Jc, it was a total mess! And when the first pract. test came, i screwed it up! I was so nervous that i i added the wrong solution..gosh..and the whole experiment really was horrible! Anyway, after that lesson, i learnt to read my qns thoroughly....it's really a frightening experience.
Actually come to think of it, Jc's life isnt that bad..at least i found some really close friends...Glenda and Yi Zheng. I can really talk to them...i mean about myself, my life bla bla bla..and vice versa. It's really fun being with them. The best thing is they are not petty..haha...u know gals are always so petty, but thanks god they arent. Anyway, study hard Zx!

=)

2005-07-08T18:37:00.000+08:00

Hell! Yueyin Lixian and Peiying saw my neoprints!!! ARGHH!!!! So embarrassing man...it's all Glenda's fault! If she didnt tell me to stop and see the z-pop poster, they wouldnt have seen it...blex! Oh! I actually saw him today!! I am not sure if it's him, but it sure looks like him...i mean...that totally sour face..haha! His hairstyle...well, no comment..but it really sucks...lol..haha..Zx is such a bad gal...anyway, have fun today! I finally bought that pair of HUGE round earring which i laid my eyes on ever since the great spore sale...and i finally decide to buy it cause i am planning on wearing it during class gathering..hoho! Hmm...he's gonna work at a remote island??!!! HAHAHA! That will really be so fun..why am i being so sarcastic? Haha...cuz it will be really weird..if u want me to go work at a remote island, i will rather kil myself. However, if i am in a bad mood, that will perfect! No one disturbing my life..hohoho!

OMG

2005-07-07T17:12:00.000+08:00

It's really horrible! I have NEVER EVER in my entire life failed so badly before!! Hell! It's totally unbelievable! Gosh!!!!! Damn! It's so DISGUSTING!!!! Eeeeeeeeee! I will get killed soon....Man! Seriously, i gotta remind myself to buck up..i do not have much time left..it's really horrible!!!!! What a bad decision i have made...

Saw Genevieve cried today..though i do not have a clear idea why she was crying, but somehow i figure it out..a bit! Gals are nothing but trouble? I wanna correct it. GUYS ARE NOTHING BUT TROUBLE! They know nothing except making gals cry...and i really dont recommend JC students to go into a relationship..not now..cuz it's a crucial 2 yrs for us...but! Well, just wish them luck..though i hope "he" wont make her cry again..it's really sad to see a friend cry....er..for this reason anyway! HAHA

Had fun chatting with Glenda at GP tutorial today..didnt really listen to what the teacher is talking about cuz we are talking bad about some people..HAHA! It's not those dislike joke, but just wanna crack some jokes between us cuz it's really a stress day...she's really crazy..esp when i told her about my "past", she totally went nuts! It's like she had never heard "that" before..lame.....=)

HOHO

2005-07-06T12:53:00.000+08:00

Hohoho! Such a bored me who’s in school doing nothing…well, supposed to do project work but everyone’s playing away, so I might as well join in the fun..HAHA! It’s really damn booooring! There’s nothing to do….BOOOOOOO! Oh well! Shall get some work done now and stop slacking!!!

HELL

2005-07-05T22:51:00.000+08:00

Kill me!!!!! Somebody just kill me....i will die....die die die...but i am glad that the tutors didnt scold me...guess they have been expecting that..how am i gonna tell my parents??!!! Gosh! Just kill me...

Miss miss miss

2005-07-04T15:24:00.000+08:00

i miss him....but is it those friendship kind of miss or love kind? hahaz...i dont know and i dont wanna know...i dont want to love anyone now except myself...love...it really hurts...friends around me have being hurt by love...so why bother to add on a burden to me...it's unneccessary...i dont need it now..."not desperately!" I can still survive without it...maybe one year from now...only then i will really considering getting myself a boyfriend...haha...if by 20 and i still cant find one, i shall remain single...as if! hahaz! But i hope he will be fine..although he probably has no idea he's the one i am referrring to..cuz there's another "one" who played a part in my life...but....haha! Forget it..

=)

2005-07-03T00:27:00.000+08:00

no more updates on my friendster's blog...hahaz

oh well

2005-07-02T23:48:00.000+08:00

Shannon has went back to Australia...he said quite a few things to me in the airport, but i was busy crying that i only heard him saying he will be back next month...of cuz i know it's a lie..haha..it was really embarrassing that i cried bcuz none of his friends including my aunt were crying..but i just cant help it..i still cried on the bus..It's really EMBARRASSING!! remembered that day Siang Rong went for Canada, i also cried...i simply dislike the feeling of someone leaving..haha...
hmm...the past 2 days were really fun...especially where we went to on friday night.."secret"...kinda scared cuz it's my 1st time there...at first it was quite exciting, but eventually bored...aunt was busy having fun with her friends...so only left Shannon to take care of me..but as the night passed...i slept and "......." haha. the feeling was really awful..i wonder why some people can stand it...we left at 3am..both of us feeling really tired..
On thursday, i went to collect the ndp preview tickets at far east square..damn! it was so difficult to find..i really wanna kill my bro who wanted me to collect on behalf of him..after that, went to meet Shannon at Orchard...he gave me a box of chocolate..haha...i only tasted it yesterday..kinda delicious, except that it was a bit bitter...anyway, i bought a pair of shoes..then walked around..slacking again...at night, we went to PS for our dinner...haha...something which kinda annoyed me happened...no one knew...anyway, Aunt's friends were really funny...it's fun being with them...after dinner...well, we went there..
oh yea...i received his sms when he arrived in Australia this morning...so surprised cuz i thought he will most probably email..anyway, i shall wish him good luck for whatever interviews he has..haha..

oh oh

2005-07-01T23:27:00.000+08:00

Hmm...further updates coming soon...

Hmmm

2005-06-30T22:58:00.000+08:00

I think he saw my blog...did he know that he's the one i am referring to? probably not..should i be happy for that? Haha...hmmm!
Anyway, i've finished my exams on tuesday..and i will fail definitely! It's really so difficult! I couldnt finish my chemistry...die...but the best is still chinese..haha...Haiya! Fail la! i just have to get prepared to get scolding from my family...=[
Went out with Shannon today...where? City Hall...we are really wasting our time there...hahaz! Simply walked and walked cuz we have no idea what to do..i wanna buy a pair of shoes, he wanna buy a couple of shirts...100% cotton, with collar, if not he wont buy..so picky..muhaha! Anyway, i chose 1 really ugly shirt from Mark and Spencer..i admit i had a bad taste cuz it really dont look good on him...well, i told him that i have never chose a decent shirt for a guy..oh well, i did once buy shirt for guys before..actually it's meant for him..i wonder did he keep it? HAHA! Anyway, back to the topic, i just gave up cuz i really couldnt find any...after that, we walked around till 6.30pm before i went back home. Gonna stay overnight at Aunt Ann's house tomorrow!!! So excited to go to..hmm...that place..it's a secret...and Aunt said that it would be really late when we go home..around am, so she wants me to stay over at her home..hehe...it would be fun! I will be going to school in the morning tomorrow for that stupid project work, after that meeting Shannon at Orchard for my shoes and keep a look out for his shirts as well...And then on sat, Aunt me and him will go out till he went back...that's how i am gonna spend the week..mostly with Shannnon...HAHA! He should be so honoured cuz i am supposed to brush up on my work during this "holiday". "holiday" cuz my exams are over but the rest are still going on, thus i dont have to go to school..yeppie! But i spent my days with him...not doing any work at all..Hmm...i am so ashamed of myself..as if! HAHA!

Happy day =)

2005-06-29T20:35:00.000+08:00

Woohoo! went to causeway point with Shannon today..actually i was kinda scared cuz it's like we have nothing to talk about..luckily it's not that awkward when we met..in fact, it's much more better than i thought..erm..after lunch at foodcourt, which i totally regret eating there cuz the western food really sucks, we went to watch "war of the world"!!!! It's a really great movie...v. exciting and the feeling is damn real! haha..although i dont like tom cruise, but i will say his acting is quite good..Hahaz..after that, we went to arcarde and then to take neoprints!!! Hahaz..i'm really mad about neoprint..lol..anyway, we took it twice cuz i find that it's really ugly the first time we took it..lol..after that we walked around, wasting our time..hahaz! But it's quite interesting cuz he's a funny guy..doing those funny/stupid things like snatching my ez-link card which made me damn embarrasse cuz i really looked like a ghost..hahaz...anyway, after that we went off at 6pm. I went home while he went to have dinner with his friends..oh i am feeling so exhausted now but he's like full of energetic..power! haha! hmm...going out tomorrow again....but i have no freaking idea where to go cuz there's simply no interesting place of attractions to go to..sentosa we went before, zoo he went a few weeks before, bird park he's not interested..HMM....it's so diffcult to decide..Singapore...you should have more intersting place to let visit..HAHA!

weird

2005-06-25T22:46:00.000+08:00

HoHoHo! School's starting soon....oh..i'll miss the holidays...hmm...i have a boyfriend? i wonder who's the one that's spreading the words...have i tell anyone about myself recently? i dun think so..except zx whom i chatted with occasionally in msn...but it couldnt be him...weird weird....
Talking about relationship...actually i prefer being single...i dont need to care about the other half's feeling, dont have to worry for him and dont have to go through unnecessary feeling..see? Being single has it's advantages..however, to me, relationship is like a game now. I wont like play people's feeling or what, but i wont put in effort in the relationship. Break up? No big deal..HAHA! There will always be some other guys out there who's single and probably a much ideal guy for me...so why bother to waste time crying? u can say I am being insane, weird, insensitive, whatever! But! i think it's too young to fall in love seriously with a guy now..i still have...about 9 years to go before it's time to settle down...haha..so i dont wanna be tied down..guys.....hahaz! NO FREEDOM! or rather, TOO MUCH FREEDOM till i dont think i am in a relationship..so the conclusion is...stay single for now!!! MUHAHA

Funny

2005-06-19T23:45:00.000+08:00

Hey hey! i am finally starting on my chemistry tutorial! Went to eldest bro's office at Bugis around midnight yesterday...crazy yea? DIFINETELY! hahaz! well...my youngest bro and i liked to be extra...lol...it's a good environment i will say...suitable place to sleep too..hahaz...anyway, we went off at 3am in e morning...and then...WHOO! We saw an accident! Well, not really those major kind, but it's 3 car hitting after one another..lol..such a cool scene..i mean...what's e probability you get to see this scene..hahaz...anyway, we stayed until all 3 cars drove off...call us extra or busy bodies, whatever! and then we went to east coast!!! haha..but there's not much breeze anyway. we actually intend to cycle..but guess we all r too lazy for that. we reached home around 6am..hahaz..we actually had to sneak in for fear that mummy willl wake up..she's that kind who will wake up for e slightest sound which no one will probably hear..i guess that's what we call.."mother instinct"..lol
Today is Father's Day! But our family did not really celebrate cuz mummy is working today. however it's a really exciting day cuz we went to dont know what's e name of e forest to pick DURIANS!! Hahaz...which reminds me of Shannon cuz that's his most unappealing fruit..lol..anyway, that area is actually out of bound cuz it's meant for military practising...but dad, 3 bros and i sneaked in anyway, We were stopped by a guard but he's kind enough to let us go cuz he probably thinks that we have no harm. At first, there was no luck in seeing any durians around..so my eldest bro and i separted from e others to find a better location. true enough, we found 4 durians, but there were all raw as told by dad...oh well, whatever! We were happy enough to see a durian..lol...anway, dad's side found quite a lot cuz they really went inside e forest. We did not cuz, i am a gal, it will be a delay for my bro and dangerous for me since i have not much experience in e forest before..anyway bro cant really go in cuz he's wearing a singlet and sandal..lol..this kind of attire wanna picked durians...HAHA..oh..i fell down when there's a slope..not really that steep, but i fell down..luckily it's not that bad..then we two walked and walked until we dont even know where we are. But eventually, just before night falls, we managed to meet up with e rest.. we were all perspiring like nobody business..haha...then that's all for our little adventure! It's kinda fun and thrilling...=)

Lalalala

2005-06-17T21:44:00.000+08:00

Went to watch BATMAN!! Habaz...it's a nice movie i will say...somehow educational too..however, i dont recommend kids to watch cuz it's kinda difficult to understand...i mean if i, a 16+++ teenagers cant really understand until it's gonna end, would a kid of 6 to 9 years old know? well, obviously no unless he/she is a genius which i doubt so...HAHAZ
Anyway, it not bcuz i dun undertsand the movie, however, it's bcuz all e actors look alike and i cant really differentiate them..haha..call me stupid, dumb, whatever u like, but that's me man..i really cant tell e differences unless it's really like two totally different faces.
Oh, i went to watch it with my youngest bro and his "friends"..he isnt really that close with them cuz he left halfway through e pre-u seminar held during e 1st week of june and thus, he's kinda unfamiliar with them..therefore, he wanted me to go with him..to save him from embarrassement...but his friends are friendly though...but it's not that kind of over-friendly..oh well, i am crapping again..it's a good movie and highly recommended!
After e movie, i recieved a msg saying that there's a meeting at sport school in regards to e sports meet...i was thinking..omg! i have totally forgotten about it..thanks god my leader reminded me...anyway, it was totally BORED!! I was still bitten my mosquitoes! Darn them...but it's all those people fault..sit down there and listen them talk n talk n talk..such a waste of time..i intended to run off halfway giving some lame excuse like i was expected to be home at 9.30pm..hahaz...but i dropped e idea when i heard e person in charge saying that he's alllowing us to leave after a briefing from whoever that person is cuz i dun remember his name..in face, i dun even know what's e name of the person in charge..haha..i dun remember such things, even ppl's bday unless tt person is impt. to me or that day is easy to remember...other than that, no doubt i will not remember anybody's bday..so dun blame me if i have totally forget yr bday..ah..enough crapping..BYE!

Eeeeeeeee

2005-06-16T23:44:00.000+08:00

I really wanna kill my elder bro...force me clean e toilet!!! Actually he gave me 2 choice, either i clean e toilet or vaccum e whole house..hah! i thought cleaning e toilet will be an easy task cuz i know that vaccum e whole house will take me more than 1 hr...little did i know that it's not that easy job afterall...and darn! i really hate cleaning up all those dirt and rubbish man..but luckily i did not get any blister..whenever i clean e house, no matter how gentle i clean it..my hand will have blister...that's why i told my mummy that i am born not to do any chores! HAHAZ! and she replied that unless i married a really rich guy, then i can slack at home..lolx...chores...i will always try to run away from it..cuz i simply hate it! Be it just washing e dishes...i can still find excuses like it's so oily! Hahaz...okay...i am just lazy to do it...cuz...I AM LAZY lor...anyway, it's usually my youngest bro who helped me do them..well, that's bcuz i plead and plead till he's irritated...but sometimes he will be so heartless and wont help me do it..But today i am lucky cuz daddy wanted me to wash e dishes..but i complained that i have washed it..erm...3 days before and bro hasnt...hahaz! then he's forced to clean it..muhaha...i am so fortunate! conclusion...oh well, I am a lazy gal...or pig which all my bros called me...

=(

2005-06-15T19:57:00.000+08:00

Clearly, the fun is over! it's really time to get started with my work...it has been 2 weeks since i have last touched my studies...2 weeks!!!! OMG...the coming test...no doubt, i will fail..just hope that it's not too badly...it's really boring these few days...i still dont have the mood to study..but! there's no choice...if i dont start now..there will be not much time left...i am starting on my GP 1st...cuz it's the easiest of all...the rest...hahaz! it's totally hopeless...
I saw his photo yesterday...he has become thinner...but still pretty much the same..sad to say...i dont really wanna see his photo...but i am really curious to know how he is doing now...glad to know that he's managing well...but is he happy?...i have no idea...anyway, it's his life...since he chose that path, he shall live it well...all i can do is wish him all the best...
Oh...i really dread going back to school man! going back to school implies the beginning of stress, more tutorials, scolding from mummy, daddy, brothers and many many people...ARGHHH! so what's the point of going back to school?!! simple reason...get a degree, have a good job! that's all..such a useless thought...but seriously, i dont like studying..partly bcuz of tests tests and more tests! I am waiting for that day when i dont need to go to school anymore...but i always heard from the adults that u will regret it cuz studying is such an easy task! Yeah..i agree that when i was working before the release of O's result..i miss the school, my friends, my old life back then. However, ever since JC life begins, i hate it...TOTALLY! not bcuz of the people, but bcuz of all those subjects...esp maths! i simply cannot catch up...darn! blame it that my maths isnt that "perfect" and i didnt take A maths...now..i am being hang! Chemistry is still ok...although it's still difficult. Econs..hahaz! No comment. Chinese is supposedly to be my best sub, however, it seems that i am not good at it afterall....thanks god, chinese is not really important..in fact..it's the least important subject. As for GP...well...still able to manage..there's nothing i can do about it anyway except to read more articles...Conclusion: JC SUCKS!!!! Hahaz! i am just being lame and inmature..perharps poly would be a better path for me? No freaking idea...heard that poly isnt that good either..oh well....guess there's bound to be pros and cons...hmmm...this phrase sound familiar..hahaz...

Sentosa

2005-06-11T20:31:00.000+08:00

Hahaha! It was so exciting yesterday!!! Went to Sentosa with my 3rd bro, aunt Ann and Shannon...it was so cool! we went to Merlion Walk, Butterfly Park and Fort Siloso. The Merlion Walk is kinda interesting though i found it a bit too ex. The view from the head of the Merlion is damn cool! I like the heat against my skin..although it's totally hot out there. However, e wind is not tt hot..uh...wat am i saying...muhaha! Watever. Then to the Butterfly Park..it's really fun cuz a scorpion was placed on my hand...it's kinda scary...but tt's something i wanna experience. You should see Ann and Shannon's expression..hahaz...so funny...they were so frightened..lol. But the best part is the Fort Siloso..so many interesting facts to know..and then there's the tunnel...my bro and i took a long time looking at e facts and videos that we do not have enough time to explore the tunnels...thus we ran as fast as we would just to take a quick look...kinda scary cuz there's no visitors there anymore. And my bro was so irritating..ran so fast till i cannot catch up..and i was behind..alone..so scary! But anyway, we manage to board e last tram...haha..it's six only..and it's e last tram!!??? anyway, our trip end here cuz we went to have our dinner at Chijmes. Really nice place to dine at..very grand..hahaz...and then there's a bday cake to eat..yum yum...it's chocolate...lol..oh..it's shannon's bday..so his friends and us were celebrating with him...guess he's happy...from his expression. Anyway, after that we went to meet our eldest bro at orchard...they were lazing away..lol..and then to borders before we head home. It's a really great day..cuz i got to experience things i didnt have a chance to..tt's why i was thinking if Shannon comes to Singapore more often, we get to know more things..hahaz! Nice to meet him and his english is superb! tt's cuz we speaks singlish..lol..tt's all...cyaZ!

Well....

2005-06-08T23:42:00.000+08:00

It's really a long long time since i update...so many things happen these past few weeks..e really sad thing was that my great grandma died...she's 97 and was quite weak...guess she's free and happy now...anyway, i met Shannon during my great grandma's funeral. He is my aunt Ann's Australia friend and was supposedly staying at her house till he went back. Hmm...v. generous i will say..but that's bcuz S'porean guys are soooooo stingy...HAHA..he's also v. shy...hahaz...so weird cuz i thought all caucasians are loud and open...but he's e total opposite..haha..but he's a nice guy. I miss e SAF concert and went out with them shopping..wasted my five dollars..but it's reall cool going out with them..i have e chance to go into e so called "upper class" shop like LV, Tiffany and Gucci and many more..they simply went in with confident...soo cool...hahaz...then ard 9.30pm went to take neoprints as a memory cuz he leaving on Sun. Regarding the neoprints..it had really driven me mad..we were running like lunatics cuz we have no idea where to decorate e neoprints...but, we managed to deco it...as good as we can..hahaz.
And then there's this Zhi Xiang...so unreasonable! Scolded me!!!! Wao lau...so angry....but cooled off when he offered me a treat...haha...but think it's an empty promise...cuz i will forget soon..lol..oh yea..he scolded me through sms cuz i pang seh him...no lor...is he blind lor...didnt see me...i was just at e 3rd cabin in e train...e best thing was i saw him boarding e train..but at e last sec...just when e door was closing, he ran out...can u believe it??!!! I dun even have e chance to run out too..so no choice..i went off 1st..and then he sms me just to scold me...nice right?? HAHAZ..anyway it's e past...cant be bothered with this small thing..if not my head will burst..hahaz...yea..i am exaggerating...hahaz....
Oh...i am still working at ps...kinda tired...but i still love working there cuz of e colleagues and e environment..i esp. love working at Ngee Ang City and Raffles City cuz the consumers are more polite and sophisticated....unlike those neighbourhood people...so rude and "action"! hahaz...
That's all i guess....oh! It's already 2 weeks since holiday started...i have not done any of my tutorials and didnt really have fun....well...there's one...which is shopping with them..hahaz!

Whoooooo

2005-05-24T23:42:00.000+08:00

Whooo! so long didnt update my blog. anyway, went back to Evergreen for the rehearsal...wow...it's still e same..haha..but it did bring back a lot of memories....but i m glad tt i scored e highest for my combined humanities...at least i did not waste my life in Evergreen...at least i have some achievements...seriously, i have no mood now...life in Jc isnt what i expected...e people is fun, but e studies part..arghh! it's so stress...but thxs god tt june holiday is coming...i m really gonna need to revise tons n tons of things!!! Bless me man!
just finished updating my chinese blog...really write a lot about my life in sec...it holds a lot of memories...but it's just plain stupid! i took 1 hr to finished it..why cant e chinese department let us use english to type it out instead???!! it will be so much easier....hahaz...
oh yea, steph came to SGP on mon..so sorry that i cant accompanying them go shopping..why? cuz of studies again!!! when will i be free of all these studies man??!!! after this, i gotta do my econs again...tt's e real hell of it..e subject which always took most of my time...tt's all

Waaaaaaaaa

2005-05-09T23:41:00.000+08:00

So embarrassing today..ran shuttle run n then fell down....and it's not even 1/4 of the run..just felt giddy sudddenly...n then..tt's it! I knew i gonna faint lo...but my legs dun wanna stop..when they finally stopped, i FELL LO...Embarassing like hell man...and now..it's still bleeding...it's been 4 hrs since i fell lor...so horrible! really dunnoe how to say..should i cy or laugh..tt's my first time falling so badly n it hurts like hell!!!! N now, i gotta redo all my 5 stations!!! Arghhhh!!!! it's not my fault what...i wanna continue running...but it's bleeding profusely...forced by teacher to redo everything next mth...have to heal first..stupid like dunoe wat...
anyway, so sad i couldnt get my pay on fri..thxs to e mr blur king...haha..but sad la...no money liao..broke....still make me rush all e way to the MRT station..n then have to half walk half run to suntec city tower...perspire like hell....n...in e end...it's him who got the pay...bleax...i was so stunned..didnt even imagine tt he didnt told sheila i am coming too...best man...haha...but nvm la..i m such a 'good' person..shall take it tt i accompanying him..
erm...great grandma's condition is very unstablised...when i reached home on thurs evening, heard fom eldest bro's gf tt she's in critical condition...so shocked...but then went to see her with my family at mid-night..haha..special request somemore...now..she seems ok...but still unstable...hope tt she will get well soon bah...she's 96..her heart is failing...there's nothing much we can do...
well...it's gonna be holiday soon! yeppie! finally! although still have to go back to scl..but i can slp late!!! tt's e most impt thing in e world..i need slp!!!! think 1 of e reason i fell is bcos i lack of slp..ytd only slept for wat.. 3 hrs?? haha..cuz rushing through e tutorials..why? cuz i didnt study on sat n fri wat..haha...guess tt's all..buaiz!!!

Haha

2005-04-29T01:40:00.000+08:00

It's so fun at cross country today!!!! Think it's e best day since i came to Innova..haha...e cheering is e best of all...cheered until no voice...think e unity in Innova is better than Evergreen...we all cheer for one another..not at all embarassed...haha...
Now comes e mass run...i am e 1st in Taurus!!!! yeah! finally break my own record..haha...but e track can really kill ppl..esp. e up slope...but e down slope is damn cool...haha...i actually feel like i m runnng in e air..cant feel anything cos it's really steep...sometimes i m afraid i will fall...but running is fun! can enjoy e scenery since i nv went there b4...haha...
Cheering is great man! Although we didnt get 1st, we got 2nd!!!! Whoooooohooooooo! It's fun, it's fun' it's fun! Taurus sa! Taurus sa! Taurus sa sa sa! Cheers for Taurus!!!!
Anyway, it's a good experience for me...cross country is really fun!!!!
Ohhhh...i went cycling with my elder bro at night too...haha...so tired..but i wanna go out..muhaha...went cycling around wdl...came back 1 n e 1/2 later..so tired...then went to slp liao...didnt chem tutorial..but cant be bother though there's chem xtra lesson tmr..hahahaha

Yea

2005-04-28T20:39:00.000+08:00

Tmr's cross country!!! i am so excited...i hope to gain a point for Taurus...haha...Taurus rock! With regards to this "occasion"...there's no scl tmr! tt's really something i should celebrate..haha...this week..is...crazy la...maths test esp...gonna fail again...haha...like mathematics induction, u fail e 1st test, u will fail e following tests...haha..but i hope tt it's wrong...anyway i didnt really prepare for it...there's so many project to do! The PW alone wasted me 4 hrs!!! Can u believe it?? it's 4 hrs!!! such a waste to my time..i can use tt time to slp lor..simply dun understand why must PW be included in our A level...a complete waste of time! So boring...but i liked monday cuz it's e slackest day of e wk...although e lessons end late, but there's many break in between, thus it's alright for me..as long as i can rest, i dun mind all e hard work...i am going to sleep really really well today..anyway i only need to wake up at 10am tmr..haha....so cool! e past few days were killing me...i had only 5 hrs slp...so tiring! Nearly dozed off several times during Econs and Maths lesson...cuz it's really bored...but e weird thing is, whenerever there's Chemistry...i will be totally awake...for no reason..haha..there's not much rest for me this wkend either...i think i chose e wrong post..shouldnt be e COP rap...thought it'll be e slackest post of all..but NO! I still have to do research n bla bla bla...haha...no choice, i like to do these kind of job which no1 likes..tt's why my committee only consist of 3 people, including me...pathetic 3...haha...tt's all bah..too lazy to type out anyway...CIAO! =)

Sick

2005-04-23T19:38:00.000+08:00

Hell! i nearly lost my ezlink card early in e morning while going to work..lucky 1 good person gave it to e bus driver n i managed to get it back..really glad tt it wasnt lost cuz there's some memoriable noeprints inside...i will really be upset if i lost it...hahaz...
Today's a damn sick day...why? Cuz i sick lor...stupid air con...i shouldnt sleep with it on..it was soooooo cold! And i got a serious flu..cant even concentrate on working, so have to go back 2 hrs early...sorry to those working at Jp with me..but i really have no mood to work la..kinda bored today..nothing fun...so shall end here! =)

Packed day

2005-04-22T23:37:00.000+08:00

Hmmm...today's a packed day...only half hr break in scl...then it's all lecture n tutorials...i nearly doze off during maths lecture..it's really BORED! anyway, after scl went to cwp to buy some files with Qi Xin...quite able to click with her...hahaz.
After tt, went to collect pay with Samson...oh yeh! finally got my pay...but it's only a few hundred bucks...whatever it is, we walked n walked, talked n talked...basically, just wasting our time.. this guy is really...haha...historic? efrom e dressing to his liking of books..lol...u should see his dressing..damn cool...for him..lol..no offence la..but really funny..even Caslysn also says so....e slippers esp..haha..i didnt even notice..only notice e top..haha..overall...FAIL!we went to esplande after tt...OMG...e library is really...erm...grand? something like tt...it's really beautifully decorated i will say...i was like an idiot there..dun even know how to play a disc...well, after tt, we wrote our names in a bk..dunnoe wat's tt bk for, but we just sign our name..hahaz...for fun la..bored mah...and then it's luch time with Caslyn..really hungry man...i didnt take my lunch, tt's why i was gobbling away..lol..no lady-like...n then it's 6.30pm...went back home..so tired! was slping in e train...
That's basically how i spend my friday...haha...but i was unreasonable la..asking him to go collect pay with me..but i also dun wan go alone...who would wan to go all e way to town just to collect a pay? shopping alone will be so embarassing..tt's why ask him go with me...lucky he agree...or else i will have to find others...
Tmr there's actually a class outing...still deciding whether i should go or nt during scl hrs, but when i saw e schedule, it was actually tmr! I thought it was SUN!!! lucky i went to double check, if nt i will sure get scolding for not coming to work..but anyway, sorry mates, really cant go..i dun need to think liao..since it's impossible for me to go...maybe next time...but have fun!
Confuse now..but dunnoe for wat reason..haha...but seriously, JC is really stress! i actually cried on tues when there's SPA...it's really difficult...esp for someone like me who took sub sci..but anyway, i was so afraid tt i dun have time to finish, tt's why i didnt even bother reading e qns..so clever of me....but anyway, e topic was titration...when i was abt to finish, i noticed tt e solution remained colourless...tt's when i knew it's was all wrong...by tt time, i was only left with wat...20 mins? i cannot even redo my expriment...so tt's it...i broke down...i was so scared! e 1st exam for A level n i was going to fail! but Ms Lee, my chem teacher was kind enough to let me redo after scl...so i was better..but whatever it is..it was tough!
And now more test n tutorials are coming up..there's maths n econs test nx wk...e worst thing of all, there's cross country on friday!!!! I will die! but e good thing is, there's no scl..haha..
Oh, btw, thurs PE was fun..why? cos of my PE teacher mah..so cute..haha...e eyes...dunnoe how to say..damn small lor..but tt's what makes him cute...i ran fast also bcos of him la..if it's other teachers..i cant be bothered with them...managed to ran in by 21mins...3.2km!!!! improved by 1 min..haha..at least better than nothing...
e uniform has been out! quite nice la...e way it fits..haha..not like evergreen..e design for e skirt really sucks lor...dunnoe how did i have e face to wear it for 4 whole yrs..haha...erm...guess tt's all...update nx time..BUAI

OMG

2005-04-14T03:15:00.000+08:00

OMG! I actually ran 3.2km early in e morning!!! My god....e teacher is trying to kill me...but i did finish...22 mins later..haha...tmr there's a maths test...a test i prepared for e past 1 week...it's e first exam since i attend jc...hope i wont fail...lol...
Oh yeh...i was late today..again! Well, i did wake up early...6.35am...n i finished preparing myself at 7.15am...but who knows? I suddently remembered tt i have forgetten to finish my maths tutorial...tt's why i was late...so sorry to hilwa..she had to walk so fast as we know tt if we're gonna walked slowly, we will definetely not be able to reached promptly at 8am in scl...we reached there on time anyway...but seriously, i think i have short term memory...it's either i forget to do my tutorial or buy e lecture notes...haha...siao liao...
Hmm..nothing much happen in scl..just tt my CLAO teacher is...i also dunnoe how to describe him...e way he teaches chinese is v. weird...e first lesson, he talked abt WW2...tt's ok...but he kept critising American and Japanese...saying they r inhuman to kill those innocent ppl blah blah blah..he's like trying to influence us to hate them...weird yeh? But attending his lesson is e best...cos there's no stress lor...haha...
Gonna work on Sunday...feel so sian...dun reallly wanna work..although it's n once a week...but i really need to slp...haha...but earning extra cash for me seems so tempting...haha...one week going to pass....it's so damn fast! I am always looking forward to wkend...bcos there's no scl! haha!
Wonder how's steph...sms her last sun..my bill gonna burst this month..haha.sent over 20 sms to her...die...she's starting scl already...hope tt she's able to cope over there...all of my good friends are posted to diff. poly...wonder when will be e next gathering....for all my good friends n my sec class..haha...kinda miss them cuz afterall..my 7 friends SH,WX, SR, Dorine, Chermaine, MQ and Marilyn are with me for 4 yrs, Jia Huey, Steph, Jas for 2 yrs...n my other classmates as well...whatever it is...just concentrate on study now!...lol...

HEHE

2005-04-13T00:06:00.000+08:00

hehe..welcome welcome!